Well, it's almost Christmas which means another year has gone by. This is often times for people to reflect on the year passed and plan for the new year to come. I'm no different really. This year has brought joy of seeing my niece kick cancer's butt and make it to a third birthday. I got to spend lots of time with family and friends. I got to travel 12 hours one way to Virginia to see four amazing musicians, Bobby Long, Marcus Foster, Sam Bradley, and Edward Hartline. Two of my friends got married and one of them asked me to be a bridesmaid and I was able to be a part of her big day and stand by her as she started the newest chapter of her life. It has been an amazing year and I'm so grateful for everything that I have been able to do.
Sadly, with each year comes heartache. This year it came both personally and nationally. Personally I have been pushed to my limit by some and broken beyond repair on those friendships. Someone told me that as we grow older people become less dependable. But, shouldn't we become more dependable? When we're younger we hold this fierce loyalty to those we care about and those that we claim to be friends with. Why, as adults with a greater understanding of things, have that same fierce loyalty with others? I don't have everything figured out in life...nowhere close to having things figured out and being put together. But, I do know that I need to be as loyal as I can to people. I'm not perfect and I'm sure I say things about others that doesn't need to be said..But, I'm working on it. We make it our goal to bring others down to make us feel better and for what? To cause someone more pain then they already feel? Is that anyway to lift ourselves up? We compare ourselves with the rest of the world and convince our minds that we have to be like that to be acceptable to anyone. I have done my best for people and my best isn't good enough. I spent a lot of time thinking that if my best wasn't good enough for them then it won't be good enough for someone else. But you know what this year has led me to believe? I believe that my best will be good enough for those that give me there best. I don't deserve someone that treats me like crap. I don't have the time in my life to spend on those people anymore.
Last week the most horrific thing happened when a man went into Sandy Hook Elementary School and killed those teachers and students. I went home last Friday after work and just cried. Those children are my oldest niece's age. I can't imagine the pain they are going through. My thoughts and prayers go out to those families and friends affected by the events in Newton, CT last Friday.
2013 looks to be a fresh start, just like any other year. It's a blank page waiting for us to pick up the pen and start writing. The choices we've made this year may not have been the best. We've made mistakes along the road and we can't change that. All we can try to do is be better. 2013 will hold it's own mistakes and bad choices. But, that's all a part of life. How we react to the consequences of our actions is what will define us. I'm a firm believer that our mistakes don't define who we are as people. I hope you believe that as well. I've seen what it looks like for someone to believe their mistakes define them and it's not fair to that person. Remember that in 2013. Try to let go of the past. Turn the page in your book and move forward. Reading the same page over and over won't change what's already been written.
I hope you all have a great holiday season with your loved ones. Thank you for reading this blog. Happy Holidays!
I love you all like mad!
XO
Kymber.
Thursday, December 20, 2012
Saturday, November 17, 2012
I Think I Have It Figured Out....Maybe...
I was going to post a blog update about my childhood memories and the fun I had growing up in Moore, Oklahoma. But then my background screen popped up and I changed my mind.
Why would that change my mind you wonder? I changed my background to a picture of Sam Bradley and me. And, as you all know I am in love with his music and think he is just a fabulous individual. Sadly, not everyone knows about him. I hate that. He's so talented. So many of his songs just touch me. You know? Like those songs that just seem to get your life? Which makes no sense in the outside world because what would a man in London have in common with a 21 year old girl in Alabama? Right? But...in to the music world it makes perfect sense.
And I don't only feel that way about Sam's music. If you know me personally you know that my music taste is pretty wide. A lot of the stuff I listen to is just for fun and dancing. I need the kind of music that speaks to me too though. And it's that music that I believe in.
I want these smaller artists to get big and get a crazy large fan base and play to crowds of thousands. I do. But, on the other hand, my selfish side, I want to keep these intimate shows..well intimate. But, I know that no matter what happens I'll have these incredible memories. I hope that one day they will get the recognition they deserve. I can't wait to be a part of this ride too.
And, I think I know how I want to use my Mass Communications with a concentration in Public Relations now. I want to represent these small artists and help them reach out to the people of the world. I want to help people discover what I have. To find the music that just makes sense to you. The kind that just makes your day better. That's what I want to do. But, for now I'll be on street teams for the artists I love and spread the word that way.
Thank you for reading! :)
I love y'all like mad!!!
XO
Kymber.
Why would that change my mind you wonder? I changed my background to a picture of Sam Bradley and me. And, as you all know I am in love with his music and think he is just a fabulous individual. Sadly, not everyone knows about him. I hate that. He's so talented. So many of his songs just touch me. You know? Like those songs that just seem to get your life? Which makes no sense in the outside world because what would a man in London have in common with a 21 year old girl in Alabama? Right? But...in to the music world it makes perfect sense.
And I don't only feel that way about Sam's music. If you know me personally you know that my music taste is pretty wide. A lot of the stuff I listen to is just for fun and dancing. I need the kind of music that speaks to me too though. And it's that music that I believe in.
I want these smaller artists to get big and get a crazy large fan base and play to crowds of thousands. I do. But, on the other hand, my selfish side, I want to keep these intimate shows..well intimate. But, I know that no matter what happens I'll have these incredible memories. I hope that one day they will get the recognition they deserve. I can't wait to be a part of this ride too.
And, I think I know how I want to use my Mass Communications with a concentration in Public Relations now. I want to represent these small artists and help them reach out to the people of the world. I want to help people discover what I have. To find the music that just makes sense to you. The kind that just makes your day better. That's what I want to do. But, for now I'll be on street teams for the artists I love and spread the word that way.
Thank you for reading! :)
I love y'all like mad!!!
XO
Kymber.
Tuesday, October 2, 2012
Time My Change Me..
Change.That's what my life is doing...again. But, that's okay. Last week I decided I want to change my major. Instead of Marketing I'm going to be a Mass Communications with a concentration in Public Relations major. I'm kind of excited about it. It's nice to know I won't have to take another Accounting class after this semester. Also, on the bright side, after this semester I have met the requirements for a Marketing minor...so the last four years haven't been a complete waste of time and money.
On top of that, Sarah's getting married next week. I'm so excited for her! It's finally happening! :D I'm also excited to be less stressed out over this. ;) But, it just makes me kind of sit back and see where all my friends are heading in life..and look at my life and where I'm heading. There's no telling what the future will bring to us. The only thing we know is that change is inevitable. I wish them the best of luck and I'm so excited to be a part of this big day, no matter how stressful it has been. :)
I'm really finding out just how much I give to some and never ask for much in return. But, now...now I've had enough. I'm tired of being a second thought or just forgotten by the people that I care for. I deserve so much more than what I've been getting and I'm tired of it. I'm done. I've finally been pushed to my breaking point. My heart hurts...but I know this is what is best for me. I need to move forward with my life. As hard as it might be...sometimes we have to leave people in the past.
I hope you are all having a fantastic start to your week! :) Thanks for reading!
I love you all like mad!
XO
Kymber.
On top of that, Sarah's getting married next week. I'm so excited for her! It's finally happening! :D I'm also excited to be less stressed out over this. ;) But, it just makes me kind of sit back and see where all my friends are heading in life..and look at my life and where I'm heading. There's no telling what the future will bring to us. The only thing we know is that change is inevitable. I wish them the best of luck and I'm so excited to be a part of this big day, no matter how stressful it has been. :)
I'm really finding out just how much I give to some and never ask for much in return. But, now...now I've had enough. I'm tired of being a second thought or just forgotten by the people that I care for. I deserve so much more than what I've been getting and I'm tired of it. I'm done. I've finally been pushed to my breaking point. My heart hurts...but I know this is what is best for me. I need to move forward with my life. As hard as it might be...sometimes we have to leave people in the past.
I hope you are all having a fantastic start to your week! :) Thanks for reading!
I love you all like mad!
XO
Kymber.
Thursday, September 20, 2012
Take With You All Your Reasons Leave Me With Mine
This last weekend I had the most amazing experience of my life, so far. I'm not sure I can ever say anything to fully show my appreciation to the people who invited me and made this all possible..But thank you so much. The memories from this weekend will last me a lifetime. This is the experience I'll be able to sit my grand kids down one day and tell them how I drove 12 hours, one way, to Virginia for a concert. It is probably the craziest thing I have ever done in my life...and I'm still on an extreme high from it all! So, thank you, seriously it was amazing!
Now...to those reading this that have no idea what I'm talking about...I guess I should explain...
I was in Virginia from the 14th-17th for a private concert by Edward Hartline, Sam Bradley, Marcus Foster, and Bobby Long. If you don't know who those guys are..well, you are about to be educated. ;)
Edward Hartline is a fantastic musician. He's from a town outside of Montgomery, Alabama...and he is 16...yeah that's right kid is freaking 16 years old. I didn't believe it..until he showed me his date of birth on his license. He's incredibly talented...and self taught! I had the pleasure of talking to him for a while on Saturday and Sunday and I'm so impressed with just his personality. He's laid back and funny. Sunday night we were talking and I mentioned my last name..and he looks at me and informs me that I have a boring last name (like I didn't already know) and I told him that my future husband has to have a cool last name. His response? "Well, Hartline is a pretty cool last name." Ha! I told him to give me a call when he turns 18. LOL! He's awesome. I can't wait to see his career go further. I'm even thinking about making a mini road trip down to Montgomery to hang out with him. That's how cool of a kid he is. But, his music is incredible. Seriously, look him up...or ya know click this YouTube link...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ros059Gk7uw&feature=plcp
Moving on from my cougar ways. ;) hahaha We have the INCREDIBLE Sam Bradley. This is the first time I have ever seen him live. I was blown away. He's so much fun on stage. He knows how to work the audience. And I may now be in love with him. :) He was so nice too! His lyrics provided today's blog title. I love that line. I was still kind of ehh about his music before this weekend. I liked a few of them but I wasn't jumping at the chance to buy his stuff on itunes...but now I'm all about Sam. His new song, Only Human, is one of my all time favorites now. I listen to it almost everyday. It's just so..amazing. I'll post the link to that video in a little bit... But, part of this weekend was a raffle with some pretty awesome items. One I really, really, really wanted was the Sam Bradley personalized journal. I just knew I was going to win it too. I put in my tickets and thought heck yeah this is my early birthday celebration weekend I got this...But, no. I didn't have it. Freaking Lindsay, who came with me, won. I wanted to punch her in the face. No lie. They called her ticket number and I was so mad...like so freaking mad. She walked back over to me all excited and happy..No. I looked at her and told her we were no longer friends. But, she let me take pictures of the pages...so at least I have them on my phone! (Side note..if anyone wants to try and get me my own version of this AWESOME thing that'd be like cool or whatever. hahaha) His notes are hilarious in the book. But, when I talked with him it felt like he actually cared what I had to say. I told him how much I love Only Human and he told me thank you and he appreciated it. His personality is just contagious. You know those people you really want to hang out with because they seem like such genuinely great people? Yeah that's him. And, I was told that girls get mad because he has a girlfriend and they think that since he's so friendly that they have a chance...and then they don't, and then they stop listening to his music. What the mess ladies?? His music is fantastic! And, even if he didn't have a girlfriend really what are the chances he'd go for you anyways? Get over yourselves. He's just got that kind of personality. He can't help it...it's who he is. Focus on the music...that's the important part. You get to create these fantastic memories with these amazing artists and you may want something to happen between you two..but aren't the fantastic memories just better untainted by something bad? A horrible ending to a relationship you thought you wanted. Don't be that way ladies. Enjoy the music and the memories. That's what matters. :) now...watch the video!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rquCga0jZ5Y&feature=BFa&list=UUCr6VToo0ZS2tNLaPsoSsbg
Now...Marcus Foster. Oh Marcus Foster..I freaking love him. He's fun! Saturday night we kept bumping into each other on the dance floor..and let me tell you..boy has got some awesome dance moves! And his facial expressions on stage kill me. His music is incredible. I have a CD that has most of his songs on it and I often find myself singing them in my head through out the day. He's so nice too. When I met him he was so excited about the British candy Lindsay and I got for him from Publix. He also made me feel really bad about not buying a CD he kept trying to push on me...And I totally would have if I wasn't buying two copies of Bobby Long's poetry book. But, it was Cari Dean's birthday and I still hadn't gotten her anything because I was waiting for this weekend to do it! And Robert, her husband, is such a party pooper and doesn't let her do anything with me!! (Just kidding...but seriously...hehehe) But, anyways...Marcus is awesome. I really love his song I Was Broken. And...so many others. I can't think of the titles right now because for some strange reason my mind has decided to stop working. But, he's great. I didn't talk to him much this weekend, he was always surrounded by others and I didn't want to be rude and interrupt his conversations. It was the first time I'd seen him live too and I wasn't disappointed. Oh! Kiss is a Knife is a really fun song of his that I love. Sadly, he didn't play it this weekend...but that's okay! :) Also, Shadows of the City..which is the one I'm gonna post a link too. :D But, just so...fantastic. I'm beginning to realize that my vocabulary for how to describe this weekend is very small.... Oh well... hahaha Now, go watch Marcus Foster! :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3x72Hgq8NL4
Lastly, we have the one who started my love for these three guys....Mr. Bobby Long! This is the third time I have seen him and he never disappoints. And this time around he was really interactive with the crowd and relaxed. It was really awesome. I knew most of his songs and sang along with them like everyone else in the room. He's really such a talented artist. And you can tell he's doing what he loves when he performs. I'm not sure what else to say about him that I haven't posted before. haha he's seriously great. I really admire him as a person. He has donated stuff to be auctioned for Alex's Lemonade Stand and that hits close to home for me now. If you don't know what I'm talking about go look up my blog post "Our Christmas Miracle"... Anyways, he's really funny and sweet and just awesome. Here's one of his songs... check it out! :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AAG2flpe8Yg
And there just seems to be so much more to say! I'm sure I'll have to do a part two!! All four of these guys are just fantastic (again with the lack of a better vocabulary...)!!! I can't wait to see them again in concert! I hope Sam and Marcus will come down to Birmingham at some point..Sam told me he would....but you know how musicians can be. ;) At least I have Edward close by to bother when I want to. :) hehehehe
I hope you guys seriously look into them! You won't regret it! I promise. If I could only pick a few people's music to listen to for the rest of my life..these guys would be it. That's how much I love their stuff. So, you guys know what to do! :D I should update again soon with more from the weekend!
Until next time lovely people! I love you like mad!
XO
Kymber.
Now...to those reading this that have no idea what I'm talking about...I guess I should explain...
I was in Virginia from the 14th-17th for a private concert by Edward Hartline, Sam Bradley, Marcus Foster, and Bobby Long. If you don't know who those guys are..well, you are about to be educated. ;)
Edward Hartline is a fantastic musician. He's from a town outside of Montgomery, Alabama...and he is 16...yeah that's right kid is freaking 16 years old. I didn't believe it..until he showed me his date of birth on his license. He's incredibly talented...and self taught! I had the pleasure of talking to him for a while on Saturday and Sunday and I'm so impressed with just his personality. He's laid back and funny. Sunday night we were talking and I mentioned my last name..and he looks at me and informs me that I have a boring last name (like I didn't already know) and I told him that my future husband has to have a cool last name. His response? "Well, Hartline is a pretty cool last name." Ha! I told him to give me a call when he turns 18. LOL! He's awesome. I can't wait to see his career go further. I'm even thinking about making a mini road trip down to Montgomery to hang out with him. That's how cool of a kid he is. But, his music is incredible. Seriously, look him up...or ya know click this YouTube link...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ros059Gk7uw&feature=plcp
Moving on from my cougar ways. ;) hahaha We have the INCREDIBLE Sam Bradley. This is the first time I have ever seen him live. I was blown away. He's so much fun on stage. He knows how to work the audience. And I may now be in love with him. :) He was so nice too! His lyrics provided today's blog title. I love that line. I was still kind of ehh about his music before this weekend. I liked a few of them but I wasn't jumping at the chance to buy his stuff on itunes...but now I'm all about Sam. His new song, Only Human, is one of my all time favorites now. I listen to it almost everyday. It's just so..amazing. I'll post the link to that video in a little bit... But, part of this weekend was a raffle with some pretty awesome items. One I really, really, really wanted was the Sam Bradley personalized journal. I just knew I was going to win it too. I put in my tickets and thought heck yeah this is my early birthday celebration weekend I got this...But, no. I didn't have it. Freaking Lindsay, who came with me, won. I wanted to punch her in the face. No lie. They called her ticket number and I was so mad...like so freaking mad. She walked back over to me all excited and happy..No. I looked at her and told her we were no longer friends. But, she let me take pictures of the pages...so at least I have them on my phone! (Side note..if anyone wants to try and get me my own version of this AWESOME thing that'd be like cool or whatever. hahaha) His notes are hilarious in the book. But, when I talked with him it felt like he actually cared what I had to say. I told him how much I love Only Human and he told me thank you and he appreciated it. His personality is just contagious. You know those people you really want to hang out with because they seem like such genuinely great people? Yeah that's him. And, I was told that girls get mad because he has a girlfriend and they think that since he's so friendly that they have a chance...and then they don't, and then they stop listening to his music. What the mess ladies?? His music is fantastic! And, even if he didn't have a girlfriend really what are the chances he'd go for you anyways? Get over yourselves. He's just got that kind of personality. He can't help it...it's who he is. Focus on the music...that's the important part. You get to create these fantastic memories with these amazing artists and you may want something to happen between you two..but aren't the fantastic memories just better untainted by something bad? A horrible ending to a relationship you thought you wanted. Don't be that way ladies. Enjoy the music and the memories. That's what matters. :) now...watch the video!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rquCga0jZ5Y&feature=BFa&list=UUCr6VToo0ZS2tNLaPsoSsbg
Now...Marcus Foster. Oh Marcus Foster..I freaking love him. He's fun! Saturday night we kept bumping into each other on the dance floor..and let me tell you..boy has got some awesome dance moves! And his facial expressions on stage kill me. His music is incredible. I have a CD that has most of his songs on it and I often find myself singing them in my head through out the day. He's so nice too. When I met him he was so excited about the British candy Lindsay and I got for him from Publix. He also made me feel really bad about not buying a CD he kept trying to push on me...And I totally would have if I wasn't buying two copies of Bobby Long's poetry book. But, it was Cari Dean's birthday and I still hadn't gotten her anything because I was waiting for this weekend to do it! And Robert, her husband, is such a party pooper and doesn't let her do anything with me!! (Just kidding...but seriously...hehehe) But, anyways...Marcus is awesome. I really love his song I Was Broken. And...so many others. I can't think of the titles right now because for some strange reason my mind has decided to stop working. But, he's great. I didn't talk to him much this weekend, he was always surrounded by others and I didn't want to be rude and interrupt his conversations. It was the first time I'd seen him live too and I wasn't disappointed. Oh! Kiss is a Knife is a really fun song of his that I love. Sadly, he didn't play it this weekend...but that's okay! :) Also, Shadows of the City..which is the one I'm gonna post a link too. :D But, just so...fantastic. I'm beginning to realize that my vocabulary for how to describe this weekend is very small.... Oh well... hahaha Now, go watch Marcus Foster! :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3x72Hgq8NL4
Lastly, we have the one who started my love for these three guys....Mr. Bobby Long! This is the third time I have seen him and he never disappoints. And this time around he was really interactive with the crowd and relaxed. It was really awesome. I knew most of his songs and sang along with them like everyone else in the room. He's really such a talented artist. And you can tell he's doing what he loves when he performs. I'm not sure what else to say about him that I haven't posted before. haha he's seriously great. I really admire him as a person. He has donated stuff to be auctioned for Alex's Lemonade Stand and that hits close to home for me now. If you don't know what I'm talking about go look up my blog post "Our Christmas Miracle"... Anyways, he's really funny and sweet and just awesome. Here's one of his songs... check it out! :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AAG2flpe8Yg
And there just seems to be so much more to say! I'm sure I'll have to do a part two!! All four of these guys are just fantastic (again with the lack of a better vocabulary...)!!! I can't wait to see them again in concert! I hope Sam and Marcus will come down to Birmingham at some point..Sam told me he would....but you know how musicians can be. ;) At least I have Edward close by to bother when I want to. :) hehehehe
I hope you guys seriously look into them! You won't regret it! I promise. If I could only pick a few people's music to listen to for the rest of my life..these guys would be it. That's how much I love their stuff. So, you guys know what to do! :D I should update again soon with more from the weekend!
Until next time lovely people! I love you like mad!
XO
Kymber.
Friday, September 7, 2012
You Desired My Attention....But Denied My Affection
So, girls..this one is for you. The last few weeks I have been thinking a lot about the time and energy we put into trying to impress a guy. Usually one we are friends with, as we try to get out of that stupid friend zone. And you know what I think? I think guys know exactly what they are doing with that awful zone they have put us in!
I know...it might seem crazy....but listen. How often do you drop everything you are doing to make sure they are okay? How often are you the one to send the first text message? What about phone calls? When do you have to change your plans to fit his needs? See where this is going? We try so hard...so hard and for what? To hear about the other girls in their lives lucky enough to just get a more then friendly look from them? Or, if they are feeling overly chatty we get more information then we could possibly want, that those guys don't understand is breaking our hearts while we just grin and bare it.
Then, there is of course the turning point when we decided to discreetly put it all on the line. We make it as obvious as we can without fully telling them how we feel and guess what? They ignore it. Why you ask? Well...they like things the way they are. They don't have to do a thing for this relationship. We do all the work. We want to hang out? We make the plans. If things were to change into more than friendship...he'd have to do more work! They want us to want them so much that we don't look too much at other guys...that way we can be at their disposal whenever they want us.
They are ruining us for anyone else. They are so perfect in our eyes that for the future, we'll always be comparing them to any love interest. It's sad...but that's the reality of falling for one of these guys. I promise if you can be strong and wait for them to initiate the first text or plan a day to hang out...you'll feel so much more appreciated.
For you girls brave enough to try and put it on the line...I hope it works better for you than it ever has for me.
But ladies, be strong. You'll be worth the wait. He'll see it one day, if not there will be a man out there that's worth all your time and energy. And he'll text you first. ;)
Love you all like mad! Until next time!
XO
Kymber.
I know...it might seem crazy....but listen. How often do you drop everything you are doing to make sure they are okay? How often are you the one to send the first text message? What about phone calls? When do you have to change your plans to fit his needs? See where this is going? We try so hard...so hard and for what? To hear about the other girls in their lives lucky enough to just get a more then friendly look from them? Or, if they are feeling overly chatty we get more information then we could possibly want, that those guys don't understand is breaking our hearts while we just grin and bare it.
Then, there is of course the turning point when we decided to discreetly put it all on the line. We make it as obvious as we can without fully telling them how we feel and guess what? They ignore it. Why you ask? Well...they like things the way they are. They don't have to do a thing for this relationship. We do all the work. We want to hang out? We make the plans. If things were to change into more than friendship...he'd have to do more work! They want us to want them so much that we don't look too much at other guys...that way we can be at their disposal whenever they want us.
They are ruining us for anyone else. They are so perfect in our eyes that for the future, we'll always be comparing them to any love interest. It's sad...but that's the reality of falling for one of these guys. I promise if you can be strong and wait for them to initiate the first text or plan a day to hang out...you'll feel so much more appreciated.
For you girls brave enough to try and put it on the line...I hope it works better for you than it ever has for me.
But ladies, be strong. You'll be worth the wait. He'll see it one day, if not there will be a man out there that's worth all your time and energy. And he'll text you first. ;)
Love you all like mad! Until next time!
XO
Kymber.
Monday, August 20, 2012
Those Storm Clouds Gather in Her Eyes
I'm tired of being sort of a push over. It's very hard for me to find it in myself to say no to people. I'm getting better at it...but, still sometimes I just can't help it. I'm a people pleaser and if I care anything about you I don't want to make you upset.
I'm working on it though. I can hold my ground for somethings and stuff, but...it's going to be a long process.
Today's title comes from "Blown Away" by Carrie Underwood, which was suggested to me by my dear sweet friend Kristin. I have been obsessed with that song lately. It kind of reflects my mood on certain things. I don't relate to the song at all. It talks about an alcoholic abusive father, which I don't have, but it's about forgetting the past and trying to erase the pain.
There’s not enough rain in Oklahoma
To wash the sins out of that house
There’s not enough wind in Oklahoma
To rip the nails out of the past
Shatter every window 'til it’s all blown away,
Every brick, every board, every slamming door blown away
'til there’s nothing left standing,
Nothing left of yesterday
Every tear-soaked whiskey memory blown away,
Blown away
I have cried too many tears over people who don't deserve them. I worry about things that I have no control of anymore. It's just time to let go and move on. No matter how much I want to cling onto somethings and never let go, it's not healthy.
I'm trying my best to get in a healthier mind set. But, that's going to be so hard. To be able to love myself and focus on the good things about me. The things others see in me that I can't see in myself. That's where I need to be.
On a happier note, I'm so excited for this semester in school! It's going to be fantastic! I have an online class with a few friends, I get to take a few Marketing classes...it's going to be a busy semester...but I'm ready for it!! :D Speaking of, I can't make this update a long one so I can focus on my online work. Bet you haven't heard me mention that on here before have you? ;)
I hope you all are having a fantastic day! Thanks for reading this simple little blog I post. I'm not sure if it's interesting to others but, it helps me put my thoughts out there and sort things out in my head. I can't wait for the next blog pots that are to come over the next few months! Wedding's are so hectic! But, I'm so glad to be apart of Sarah's big day! Everything is going to be fabulous!
Love you guys like mad!
Until next time!
XO
Kymber.
I'm working on it though. I can hold my ground for somethings and stuff, but...it's going to be a long process.
Today's title comes from "Blown Away" by Carrie Underwood, which was suggested to me by my dear sweet friend Kristin. I have been obsessed with that song lately. It kind of reflects my mood on certain things. I don't relate to the song at all. It talks about an alcoholic abusive father, which I don't have, but it's about forgetting the past and trying to erase the pain.
There’s not enough rain in Oklahoma
To wash the sins out of that house
There’s not enough wind in Oklahoma
To rip the nails out of the past
Shatter every window 'til it’s all blown away,
Every brick, every board, every slamming door blown away
'til there’s nothing left standing,
Nothing left of yesterday
Every tear-soaked whiskey memory blown away,
Blown away
I have cried too many tears over people who don't deserve them. I worry about things that I have no control of anymore. It's just time to let go and move on. No matter how much I want to cling onto somethings and never let go, it's not healthy.
I'm trying my best to get in a healthier mind set. But, that's going to be so hard. To be able to love myself and focus on the good things about me. The things others see in me that I can't see in myself. That's where I need to be.
On a happier note, I'm so excited for this semester in school! It's going to be fantastic! I have an online class with a few friends, I get to take a few Marketing classes...it's going to be a busy semester...but I'm ready for it!! :D Speaking of, I can't make this update a long one so I can focus on my online work. Bet you haven't heard me mention that on here before have you? ;)
I hope you all are having a fantastic day! Thanks for reading this simple little blog I post. I'm not sure if it's interesting to others but, it helps me put my thoughts out there and sort things out in my head. I can't wait for the next blog pots that are to come over the next few months! Wedding's are so hectic! But, I'm so glad to be apart of Sarah's big day! Everything is going to be fabulous!
Love you guys like mad!
Until next time!
XO
Kymber.
Sunday, July 22, 2012
Forever Young
So, Monday night the girls and I went to Atlanta to see Tyler Hilton and Corey White at Eddie's Attic. Which, by the way, totally sweet venue. And, it was just so much fun to be there with the girls. It was a much needed night out.
After the show, we of course met him and he autographed my shirt and a poster for Rileigh and me. And, whether my imagination made up that he remembers me or not, I'm still telling people he remembered me. He asked if he could add to my shirt, which...duh? Right? Then, when we were taking pictures with him he asked where we were from and I said Birmingham, he was pretty much in shock that we drove 3 hours to come see him. But, what can I say? I love that guy and the girls wanted to come with, so..yeah. Then, and I almost died because of this, he asked me which venue I liked better, WorkPlay or Moonlight on the Mountain. OMG. Dream come true!!! Now, I love both venues. WorkPlay is just so amazing to me and Moonlight had a super cool acoustic set up to it. But, the one down side really to moonlight is the fact that you can't buy your tickets in advance. Morgan and I got there an hour before the doors opened to try and get a good seat and we were behind a lot of people because they started lining up at like one. Five hours before the doors opened! It was crazy. Understandable, but crazy none the less. So, needless to say I told him WorkPlay because I would live there if I could. Haha! So, he told me that he'd be back in Birmingham in the next six months and play WorkPlay. So, you're welcome Birmingham, thanks to me Tyler Hilton will be back 'cause he remembers me and all. ;) Also, he called me his Bham buddy and me and the girls were the bham crew. BOO YAH!
But, this experience has been so amazing. I feel like my efforts to go to concerts and wait around and see the artists aren't completely crazy. Heck, I'm friends with Dion Roy, who has opened for Tyler Hilton 2 of the 3 times I've seen him, on Facebook and he comments on my status' sometimes and all that cool stuff. And, maybe one day....way down the road, Bobby Long will start to remember me too. Maybe. I mean I did make a shirt with Kaycie for the first show of his I went to....and it glowed in the dark. How can you forget that right? One can only hope.
I don't find myself interesting. I have some awesome stories to tell my future kids and grand kids though. These concerts have gotten me through a lot. Like, the first concert that really started my concert going craze, 100 Monkeys on April 20, 2010, that was a day or two after we had said our final goodbyes to my Uncle Bob. I was in a bad place and needed to get my mind off of things...and going out to the 100 Monkeys concert and meeting the band was just what I needed. I'll never forget the excitement that was that night. The awe of seeing Jackson Rathbone fist bump Clarence from the stage and being so jealous of him. Haha! Or how the band was so cool afterwards and Uncle hugged Nyya and signed her shirt. It's just those moments that I'll always remember.
When Tyler Hilton announced he was coming to Birmingham that first time...I literally flipped out. I have been in love with his music since 8th grade and he makes me go all fan girl. It was so great to go and experience that with Morgan and Kaycie. That concert also led to my Facebook friendship to Dion Roy. It also introduced us to the amazingness that is Josiah Leming and his song 'Silly Fly.'
And then the beautiful Englishman that is Bobby Long came to town. Now, if you know me you know that I have this weird obsession with all things England...and you also know how much I love those sexy accents. Swoon. Anyways, Kaycie and I made our shirts and he was like "That's so sweet. Thank you." Dead. And when we took our pictures with him I made him laugh. It was just an amazing night. And he's really such a sweet guy.
I know, a lot of these stories are already on here and you are probably wondering why I'm talking about this. My dream is to become a Publicist for a PR firm. Not sure where yet...but somewhere. And get to help others discover awesome music like these guys. Or get to help even Market the guys in this post. Which, I think I would faint if I was able to do that. I want to help people with their problems that sometimes only a good song can help with. So many songs have touched my life and I'm not even sure where to begin on a lot of them. But, if I can help give that feeling to someone else, someone who needs it just as much as I have needed it...I think I can be okay with my choices.
Years down the road these guys might not be around anymore. 100 Monkeys have already split up. Which really sucks because they were so much fun, but the new formed band seems to be just as fun. I guess only time will tell. But, once they are retired we'll still be left with amazing music. And I'll have these amazing memories that I will cherish forever. I can't wait for these guys to come back to town, hopefully soon. If you haven't looked them up yet you really should.
And, if by some off chance, any of these guys are reading this, thank you so much for all you do. You have all touched my life in one way or the other. So, Tyler Hilton, Dion Roy, Josiah Leming, Corey White, 100 Monkeys, and Bobby Long...I can't wait to see where the next years take you and I'm so excited to be a part of it from the audience. Good luck to you all. :)
Until next time. I love y'all like mad.
XO
Kymber.
After the show, we of course met him and he autographed my shirt and a poster for Rileigh and me. And, whether my imagination made up that he remembers me or not, I'm still telling people he remembered me. He asked if he could add to my shirt, which...duh? Right? Then, when we were taking pictures with him he asked where we were from and I said Birmingham, he was pretty much in shock that we drove 3 hours to come see him. But, what can I say? I love that guy and the girls wanted to come with, so..yeah. Then, and I almost died because of this, he asked me which venue I liked better, WorkPlay or Moonlight on the Mountain. OMG. Dream come true!!! Now, I love both venues. WorkPlay is just so amazing to me and Moonlight had a super cool acoustic set up to it. But, the one down side really to moonlight is the fact that you can't buy your tickets in advance. Morgan and I got there an hour before the doors opened to try and get a good seat and we were behind a lot of people because they started lining up at like one. Five hours before the doors opened! It was crazy. Understandable, but crazy none the less. So, needless to say I told him WorkPlay because I would live there if I could. Haha! So, he told me that he'd be back in Birmingham in the next six months and play WorkPlay. So, you're welcome Birmingham, thanks to me Tyler Hilton will be back 'cause he remembers me and all. ;) Also, he called me his Bham buddy and me and the girls were the bham crew. BOO YAH!
But, this experience has been so amazing. I feel like my efforts to go to concerts and wait around and see the artists aren't completely crazy. Heck, I'm friends with Dion Roy, who has opened for Tyler Hilton 2 of the 3 times I've seen him, on Facebook and he comments on my status' sometimes and all that cool stuff. And, maybe one day....way down the road, Bobby Long will start to remember me too. Maybe. I mean I did make a shirt with Kaycie for the first show of his I went to....and it glowed in the dark. How can you forget that right? One can only hope.
I don't find myself interesting. I have some awesome stories to tell my future kids and grand kids though. These concerts have gotten me through a lot. Like, the first concert that really started my concert going craze, 100 Monkeys on April 20, 2010, that was a day or two after we had said our final goodbyes to my Uncle Bob. I was in a bad place and needed to get my mind off of things...and going out to the 100 Monkeys concert and meeting the band was just what I needed. I'll never forget the excitement that was that night. The awe of seeing Jackson Rathbone fist bump Clarence from the stage and being so jealous of him. Haha! Or how the band was so cool afterwards and Uncle hugged Nyya and signed her shirt. It's just those moments that I'll always remember.
When Tyler Hilton announced he was coming to Birmingham that first time...I literally flipped out. I have been in love with his music since 8th grade and he makes me go all fan girl. It was so great to go and experience that with Morgan and Kaycie. That concert also led to my Facebook friendship to Dion Roy. It also introduced us to the amazingness that is Josiah Leming and his song 'Silly Fly.'
And then the beautiful Englishman that is Bobby Long came to town. Now, if you know me you know that I have this weird obsession with all things England...and you also know how much I love those sexy accents. Swoon. Anyways, Kaycie and I made our shirts and he was like "That's so sweet. Thank you." Dead. And when we took our pictures with him I made him laugh. It was just an amazing night. And he's really such a sweet guy.
I know, a lot of these stories are already on here and you are probably wondering why I'm talking about this. My dream is to become a Publicist for a PR firm. Not sure where yet...but somewhere. And get to help others discover awesome music like these guys. Or get to help even Market the guys in this post. Which, I think I would faint if I was able to do that. I want to help people with their problems that sometimes only a good song can help with. So many songs have touched my life and I'm not even sure where to begin on a lot of them. But, if I can help give that feeling to someone else, someone who needs it just as much as I have needed it...I think I can be okay with my choices.
Years down the road these guys might not be around anymore. 100 Monkeys have already split up. Which really sucks because they were so much fun, but the new formed band seems to be just as fun. I guess only time will tell. But, once they are retired we'll still be left with amazing music. And I'll have these amazing memories that I will cherish forever. I can't wait for these guys to come back to town, hopefully soon. If you haven't looked them up yet you really should.
And, if by some off chance, any of these guys are reading this, thank you so much for all you do. You have all touched my life in one way or the other. So, Tyler Hilton, Dion Roy, Josiah Leming, Corey White, 100 Monkeys, and Bobby Long...I can't wait to see where the next years take you and I'm so excited to be a part of it from the audience. Good luck to you all. :)
Until next time. I love y'all like mad.
XO
Kymber.
Wednesday, June 6, 2012
Not Sure What Song Matches My Mood...
I'm sitting here in bed. Just got done working on some homework for one of my classes. Trying to figure out all this crazy mess that is going on in my head.
Let me start by saying that I am so happy for all of my friends who have been fortunate enough to find the ones that they want to get married to. I am. It makes me happy to see them happy. I get to be a bridesmaid in one of the weddings and I'm so excited! I love the dress and shoes that I have to have and even though I'm slightly afraid that I may fall down as I'm walking down the aisle I'm hopeful I won't. :) So, lots of people getting married and having kids and moving on with their lives. Which, is great. Honestly. But...then there's me. And the closest thing to a boyfriend I have is my pillow pet dolphin Jason gave me last year for Christmas....IE my night time cuddle buddy.
With everyone finding the one they're going to be married to...I just feel stuck. You know what I mean? Like everyone is moving and you're trying so hard to lift your feet and head in the same direction as everyone else..but you can't. You try calling out to someone...anyone..and still all you get is nothing? That's how I feel. Like I try to put myself out there and meet someone...even just someone to go on one date with and I come out with nothing.
Looking back on me in High School I totally understand why I had no dates. I can't believe how I looked back then. And that was only three years ago. But, now....I feel like all the effort I put into making myself somewhat presentable and "cute" leads me nowhere. Last year...I tried so hard to get this guy to go out with me...just to ask me out on one date. That's all I wanted. And then...well, it just didn't work and threw me for a loop when I found out he wasn't interested. Am I just making things up in my mind? Am I turning into one of those girls that I used to make fun of that is so desperate for any kind of attention?
I should be used to the disappointment that is the male species. Most of them will only disappoint you in the end. That's at least my experience with them. And, I try to remember an e-mail my Uncle sent me shortly before he died. He said this, " Please remember that there are good men out there." And now, I'm a blubbering mess because it's been forever since I have read that e-mail. But, I try to think that there are good men out there. I am shown often that there are. But, none of crossed my path. I see in my older brother all the time. He wasn't always the guy he is today. But, I know if I need him he'd be there for me. He is an amazing husband and father. I just wish I had someone that would look at me with even a 1/4 of the love and devotion my brother gives my sister in law.
Are my standards too high? Am I just going to be alone for the rest of my life? That's certainly how it feels. I just don't know what to do anymore. I have tried my best and come out empty handed.
Tonight's update is a little depressing..yes I know. I'm sorry. I just felt like I should get this off my chest. And I do feel a little better. Now, I'm going to cuddle up with Killer, my pillow pet, and watch Mean Girls. Because, well, let's face it....that movie sorta rocks.
Love you madly lovely readers! :)
XO
Kymber.
Let me start by saying that I am so happy for all of my friends who have been fortunate enough to find the ones that they want to get married to. I am. It makes me happy to see them happy. I get to be a bridesmaid in one of the weddings and I'm so excited! I love the dress and shoes that I have to have and even though I'm slightly afraid that I may fall down as I'm walking down the aisle I'm hopeful I won't. :) So, lots of people getting married and having kids and moving on with their lives. Which, is great. Honestly. But...then there's me. And the closest thing to a boyfriend I have is my pillow pet dolphin Jason gave me last year for Christmas....IE my night time cuddle buddy.
With everyone finding the one they're going to be married to...I just feel stuck. You know what I mean? Like everyone is moving and you're trying so hard to lift your feet and head in the same direction as everyone else..but you can't. You try calling out to someone...anyone..and still all you get is nothing? That's how I feel. Like I try to put myself out there and meet someone...even just someone to go on one date with and I come out with nothing.
Looking back on me in High School I totally understand why I had no dates. I can't believe how I looked back then. And that was only three years ago. But, now....I feel like all the effort I put into making myself somewhat presentable and "cute" leads me nowhere. Last year...I tried so hard to get this guy to go out with me...just to ask me out on one date. That's all I wanted. And then...well, it just didn't work and threw me for a loop when I found out he wasn't interested. Am I just making things up in my mind? Am I turning into one of those girls that I used to make fun of that is so desperate for any kind of attention?
I should be used to the disappointment that is the male species. Most of them will only disappoint you in the end. That's at least my experience with them. And, I try to remember an e-mail my Uncle sent me shortly before he died. He said this, " Please remember that there are good men out there." And now, I'm a blubbering mess because it's been forever since I have read that e-mail. But, I try to think that there are good men out there. I am shown often that there are. But, none of crossed my path. I see in my older brother all the time. He wasn't always the guy he is today. But, I know if I need him he'd be there for me. He is an amazing husband and father. I just wish I had someone that would look at me with even a 1/4 of the love and devotion my brother gives my sister in law.
Are my standards too high? Am I just going to be alone for the rest of my life? That's certainly how it feels. I just don't know what to do anymore. I have tried my best and come out empty handed.
Tonight's update is a little depressing..yes I know. I'm sorry. I just felt like I should get this off my chest. And I do feel a little better. Now, I'm going to cuddle up with Killer, my pillow pet, and watch Mean Girls. Because, well, let's face it....that movie sorta rocks.
Love you madly lovely readers! :)
XO
Kymber.
Thursday, April 26, 2012
Set Fire To The Rain...Or Well...Paper
So, I'm sitting here at the library on campus, waiting for the ever so lovely Nyya to get out of class so we can go back to her dorm. I should be working on my movie class final. But, to heck with that. My brain feels like it's about to explode. I'm exhausted. I want to cry, scream, kick, etc. Ya know throw a 2 year-old temp tantrum. And have a pity party. But, I always feel like that during finals, so I guess this time should be no different.
I'm excited to say that tonight I'm burning pieces of paper with some friends as a symbolic way of letting it go. Clarence is a genius. I can't believe we haven't thought of/ done this before. I need it. There are so many things in my life that I want to just forget and let go and move on with my life. Insecurities, people, bad habits, you name it, I'm gonna burn it. I encourage you guys to do the same!! I know, it seems kind of weird but it's nice to know that I can burn it. Hehehehehe! So, here's what you need to do for your burning ceremony. You get a group of friends, or you can do it by yourself. Doesn't really matter. But, you get a glass jar or something, anything really to burn the pieces of paper in. Just, don't burn down your house. ;) Then...the hard part. You write down what you want to let go. Some of mine include, not good enough, ugly, fat, 'I love you...just like a sister', Accounting 200...you get the point. Just write it down on a piece of paper, throw it into whatever you picked to burn stuff, and you light those bad boys on fire...and LET GO! Be the person you are supposed to be. Who you want to be. The person that you KNOW you are. Which is amazing. Don't let what other people think of you get you down. It doesn't matter. Because at the end of the day, the people who matter...who really love you, love you for who you are. Sure, we all have our issues we have to work out for ourselves, some bigger than others, but, we aren't alone. We all have a story, one that has lead us to where we are now. We can't forget the past. The past is what has helped us become who we are. There are ugly things in the past. Things we wish we could forget. But, they were learning experiences. You don't have to always remember them. Just know..one day someone will come along with a story, worse than yours, and need your help. Need the help that only you can give because of the experience that you have had. We might not understand why things happen. I'm constantly praying and asking why these things are going on in my life. Why I had to go through what I've been through. And, I think I might have been able to help someone who needed it. I'm not saying who. But, if your reading this and think it's you...well, I hope I have done some good.
But, thanks to Clarence I am sharing this idea here. I hope you all will do this. I haven't done it yet, but I've been thinking about it ALL day. Let's move on with our lives people! Love who you are!
Remember, Love is Louder than anything anyone else says about us.
I love you like mad.
Until next time beautiful people!
XO
Kymber.
PS I promise a blog update is to come about Tyler Hilton...HE HUGGED ME!!! AAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
I'm excited to say that tonight I'm burning pieces of paper with some friends as a symbolic way of letting it go. Clarence is a genius. I can't believe we haven't thought of/ done this before. I need it. There are so many things in my life that I want to just forget and let go and move on with my life. Insecurities, people, bad habits, you name it, I'm gonna burn it. I encourage you guys to do the same!! I know, it seems kind of weird but it's nice to know that I can burn it. Hehehehehe! So, here's what you need to do for your burning ceremony. You get a group of friends, or you can do it by yourself. Doesn't really matter. But, you get a glass jar or something, anything really to burn the pieces of paper in. Just, don't burn down your house. ;) Then...the hard part. You write down what you want to let go. Some of mine include, not good enough, ugly, fat, 'I love you...just like a sister', Accounting 200...you get the point. Just write it down on a piece of paper, throw it into whatever you picked to burn stuff, and you light those bad boys on fire...and LET GO! Be the person you are supposed to be. Who you want to be. The person that you KNOW you are. Which is amazing. Don't let what other people think of you get you down. It doesn't matter. Because at the end of the day, the people who matter...who really love you, love you for who you are. Sure, we all have our issues we have to work out for ourselves, some bigger than others, but, we aren't alone. We all have a story, one that has lead us to where we are now. We can't forget the past. The past is what has helped us become who we are. There are ugly things in the past. Things we wish we could forget. But, they were learning experiences. You don't have to always remember them. Just know..one day someone will come along with a story, worse than yours, and need your help. Need the help that only you can give because of the experience that you have had. We might not understand why things happen. I'm constantly praying and asking why these things are going on in my life. Why I had to go through what I've been through. And, I think I might have been able to help someone who needed it. I'm not saying who. But, if your reading this and think it's you...well, I hope I have done some good.
But, thanks to Clarence I am sharing this idea here. I hope you all will do this. I haven't done it yet, but I've been thinking about it ALL day. Let's move on with our lives people! Love who you are!
Remember, Love is Louder than anything anyone else says about us.
I love you like mad.
Until next time beautiful people!
XO
Kymber.
PS I promise a blog update is to come about Tyler Hilton...HE HUGGED ME!!! AAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
Thursday, April 5, 2012
I've Had the Time of My Life...
One Tree Hill ended last night. Broke my heart. I cried, not as much as I thought I would. But, still had some tears. I watched it with my older sister and Addison. Although, Addison was really just watching Jimmy Neutron on my sister's kindle fire. But, it was a good way to end the series. A night at Tric, a jump to the future to see Jamie beat Nathan's scoring title. The show maybe over, but the characters are still in my heart. And always will be. There is so much that One Tree Hill taught me. And like I've said before, I started watching the show when I was a 7th grader in Oklahoma. Now, I'm a Junior in college in Alabama. I have grown up with that show. Almost as long as Harry Potter. Weird to think about it like that....hmmm...
Anyways, thank you again to the cast and crew of One Tree Hill. It has touched my life in so many ways.
Last night I was texting Rileigh during the show. We decided that we're going to FINALLY take our trip to Wilmington, the town where One Tree Hill was filmed. It doesn't matter that the show is over. Yeah, it sucks we won't be able to meet them and what not. But, that's not the point anymore. It's to go and see the place we have loved for 9 years. The place we have a connection to. It's become so much more than just a show.
But, life goes on. Everything has to come to an end eventually. But, One Tree Hill will always have a special place in my heart. There's no forgetting anything.
On a different note, I get to register for classes today. Summer and Fall. I don't wanna. But, in order for me to graduate in December 2013, gotta do it. :(
Addison only has two more chemo treatments left! Yay!! Sooooo exciting! :) I can't wait for this to be over! Her hair is just falling out so much. Adam is probably gonna shave it off soon. It's heart breaking. But, it's just hair. It'll grow back. And it could be so much worse than it is.
Just an update on my life right now and another little thing about One Tree Hill. Thanks for reading guys! :)
Love you like mad.
XO
Kymber.
Anyways, thank you again to the cast and crew of One Tree Hill. It has touched my life in so many ways.
Last night I was texting Rileigh during the show. We decided that we're going to FINALLY take our trip to Wilmington, the town where One Tree Hill was filmed. It doesn't matter that the show is over. Yeah, it sucks we won't be able to meet them and what not. But, that's not the point anymore. It's to go and see the place we have loved for 9 years. The place we have a connection to. It's become so much more than just a show.
But, life goes on. Everything has to come to an end eventually. But, One Tree Hill will always have a special place in my heart. There's no forgetting anything.
On a different note, I get to register for classes today. Summer and Fall. I don't wanna. But, in order for me to graduate in December 2013, gotta do it. :(
Addison only has two more chemo treatments left! Yay!! Sooooo exciting! :) I can't wait for this to be over! Her hair is just falling out so much. Adam is probably gonna shave it off soon. It's heart breaking. But, it's just hair. It'll grow back. And it could be so much worse than it is.
Just an update on my life right now and another little thing about One Tree Hill. Thanks for reading guys! :)
Love you like mad.
XO
Kymber.
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
We're Just Ordinary People
All my life I have been waiting for something extraordinary to happen in my life. Something so fantastically awesome that would set me apart from everyone else. Something that would make me known by so many people. Have people look up to me and envy this amazing life.
But, here I am, living at home with my mother and two younger siblings, in a small town in Alabama, and going to college in Birmingham. I work part time at a party store. I don't drive a nice sports car. I'm single. I have an extremely boring life. But, maybe that's what I'm destined for.
Maybe I'm just meant to be ordinary. I don't have anything super special about me. I'm just me. I don't go out and do much. My Saturday night was spent watching The Cheetah Girls 1 and 2. I mean...really?
But, that's okay. Some days I like being boring. I have a lot of stuff that goes on in my life that isn't awesome, but it is sad. I just wish something would go right for me. Something amazing. But, until then I will go to school in Birmingham, work part time at the party store and be thankful for what I have. Maybe one day something extraordinary will happen, maybe not. And that's okay too. Only time will tell.
Oh!!!! Before I leave you lovely people for now...Tyler Hilton's new album dropped today on iTunes, Forget the Storm. And it is FABULOUS!!! Seriously. I have listened to it allllll day. Tyler deffinately didn't disappoint with this great album. And, for those of you in the Birmingham area, Tyler and my "Facebook BFF" (I refer to him as that, I don't think he knows this though. hehehe) Dion Roy, will be playing on April 19th at Moonlight on the Mountain in Hoover! Be there or be super lameeee!! :)
Until next time.
XO
Kymber.
PS! Tomorrow night is the SERIES FINALE of One Tree Hill, my favorite show since I was 11. I am not emotionally ready for this show to be over...but, life goes on. #GoodnightTreeHill Watch it!! ;)
But, here I am, living at home with my mother and two younger siblings, in a small town in Alabama, and going to college in Birmingham. I work part time at a party store. I don't drive a nice sports car. I'm single. I have an extremely boring life. But, maybe that's what I'm destined for.
Maybe I'm just meant to be ordinary. I don't have anything super special about me. I'm just me. I don't go out and do much. My Saturday night was spent watching The Cheetah Girls 1 and 2. I mean...really?
But, that's okay. Some days I like being boring. I have a lot of stuff that goes on in my life that isn't awesome, but it is sad. I just wish something would go right for me. Something amazing. But, until then I will go to school in Birmingham, work part time at the party store and be thankful for what I have. Maybe one day something extraordinary will happen, maybe not. And that's okay too. Only time will tell.
Oh!!!! Before I leave you lovely people for now...Tyler Hilton's new album dropped today on iTunes, Forget the Storm. And it is FABULOUS!!! Seriously. I have listened to it allllll day. Tyler deffinately didn't disappoint with this great album. And, for those of you in the Birmingham area, Tyler and my "Facebook BFF" (I refer to him as that, I don't think he knows this though. hehehe) Dion Roy, will be playing on April 19th at Moonlight on the Mountain in Hoover! Be there or be super lameeee!! :)
Until next time.
XO
Kymber.
PS! Tomorrow night is the SERIES FINALE of One Tree Hill, my favorite show since I was 11. I am not emotionally ready for this show to be over...but, life goes on. #GoodnightTreeHill Watch it!! ;)
Saturday, March 24, 2012
Don't Say I Never Gave You Anything...
One Tree Hill is almost over. After nine years of an amazing show there re just two episodes left. I can't believe it's almost over. Some might think my attachment to this show is ridiculous...but it's been there to be my escape so many times.
I remember when One Tree Hill was about to premiere on the WB. I was in 7th grade in Oklahoma. I wasn't so sure about the show. I actually thought it looked kinda stupid. But, one of my really good friends at the time kept telling me I needed to watch it. If not for the show then for the two hot guys in it. So, being the 11 year old girl I was I was all for the hot guys. So, I tuned in that first night. And wasn't disappointed in what I saw. And, thus began my love for the show. I collected EVERYTHING to do with the show, magazine articles, favorited every Internet site dedicated to the show and my favorite couples, etc. It was my escape from my soon to be move from Oklahoma to Alabama. It brought all my friends together.
We used to write notes to each other with code names. That way if anyone got a hold of one of our notes they wouldn't know who wrote it. I was Haley. I thought I related best to her. With a little bit of Peyton mixed in there too. We used to call each other on commercial breaks to talk about what had just happened. One Tree Hill captured us for far more than an hour a week.
Then, when Brian died in a car accident and I was having a hard time dealing with that...One Tree Hill was my escape. For that one night a week it's all I looked forward to. I was moody and awful to almost everyone, but One Tree Hill was what I looked forward to.
When we moved to Alabama it was still what I looked forward to. The few friends I made that first year here were due to our bonding over One Tree Hill. I got one girl in the band with me addicted to the show as well. She's the person I was closest to, and then she moved. But, for a little bit we still kept in touch and talked about the show for a little bit.
Rileigh and I used to have One Tree Hill marathons when I would go out to visit. I have every season on DVD and I would bring them and we'd pick our favorite episodes to watch and stay up...forever to watch them. I have so many memories centered around this show. And to see it coming to an end....it makes me sad. But, I know all good things must come to an end. I will still be able to watch it when I want to since I have the DVDs. I know I'm going to cry a lot when they air the series finale. I've cried in almost every episode this season. Just knowing it's coming to an end is hard. And their story line is killing me!
So, this blog post is titled "Don't Say I Never Gave You Anything." A quote from Nathan Scott in season one. And One Tree Hill has given me so many memories. So many good times. I've laughed, cried, and worried for these characters. I'd like to say thank you to cast and writers. I'm not sure if any of them will read this, but thank you. So much for the last nine years. It's been an amazing ride and I'm glad to have been a part of it. Thank you especially to Sophia Bush, Bethany Joy, and James Lafferty. The three that have been a part of all nine years. I have cheered for each of you. I have cried with your characters and fell in love with them. Thank you for sticking it through. I can't wait to see what you all go on to do with your lives.
Anyone who watches the show, and has stuck it through to the end, I hope you've enjoyed this as much as I have.
One Tree Hill will always hold a special place in my heart. And with that, I leave you one of my favorite quotes from the show. :)
Episode 5.13
Peyton: "Name a wish, place it in your heart. Anything you want, everything you want.
Lucas: "Do you have it? Good. Now believe it can come true.
You never know when the next miracle can come from, the next smile, the next wish com true."
Peyton: "But if you believe that it right around the corner.
And you open your heart and mind to the possibility of it, to the serenity of it."
Brooke: "You just may get the thing your are wishing for."
Nathan: "The world is full of magic you just have to believe it.
So make your wish. Do you have it?"
Haley: "Good. Now believe in it with all you heart."
XO
Kymber.
I remember when One Tree Hill was about to premiere on the WB. I was in 7th grade in Oklahoma. I wasn't so sure about the show. I actually thought it looked kinda stupid. But, one of my really good friends at the time kept telling me I needed to watch it. If not for the show then for the two hot guys in it. So, being the 11 year old girl I was I was all for the hot guys. So, I tuned in that first night. And wasn't disappointed in what I saw. And, thus began my love for the show. I collected EVERYTHING to do with the show, magazine articles, favorited every Internet site dedicated to the show and my favorite couples, etc. It was my escape from my soon to be move from Oklahoma to Alabama. It brought all my friends together.
We used to write notes to each other with code names. That way if anyone got a hold of one of our notes they wouldn't know who wrote it. I was Haley. I thought I related best to her. With a little bit of Peyton mixed in there too. We used to call each other on commercial breaks to talk about what had just happened. One Tree Hill captured us for far more than an hour a week.
Then, when Brian died in a car accident and I was having a hard time dealing with that...One Tree Hill was my escape. For that one night a week it's all I looked forward to. I was moody and awful to almost everyone, but One Tree Hill was what I looked forward to.
When we moved to Alabama it was still what I looked forward to. The few friends I made that first year here were due to our bonding over One Tree Hill. I got one girl in the band with me addicted to the show as well. She's the person I was closest to, and then she moved. But, for a little bit we still kept in touch and talked about the show for a little bit.
Rileigh and I used to have One Tree Hill marathons when I would go out to visit. I have every season on DVD and I would bring them and we'd pick our favorite episodes to watch and stay up...forever to watch them. I have so many memories centered around this show. And to see it coming to an end....it makes me sad. But, I know all good things must come to an end. I will still be able to watch it when I want to since I have the DVDs. I know I'm going to cry a lot when they air the series finale. I've cried in almost every episode this season. Just knowing it's coming to an end is hard. And their story line is killing me!
So, this blog post is titled "Don't Say I Never Gave You Anything." A quote from Nathan Scott in season one. And One Tree Hill has given me so many memories. So many good times. I've laughed, cried, and worried for these characters. I'd like to say thank you to cast and writers. I'm not sure if any of them will read this, but thank you. So much for the last nine years. It's been an amazing ride and I'm glad to have been a part of it. Thank you especially to Sophia Bush, Bethany Joy, and James Lafferty. The three that have been a part of all nine years. I have cheered for each of you. I have cried with your characters and fell in love with them. Thank you for sticking it through. I can't wait to see what you all go on to do with your lives.
Anyone who watches the show, and has stuck it through to the end, I hope you've enjoyed this as much as I have.
One Tree Hill will always hold a special place in my heart. And with that, I leave you one of my favorite quotes from the show. :)
Episode 5.13
Peyton: "Name a wish, place it in your heart. Anything you want, everything you want.
Lucas: "Do you have it? Good. Now believe it can come true.
You never know when the next miracle can come from, the next smile, the next wish com true."
Peyton: "But if you believe that it right around the corner.
And you open your heart and mind to the possibility of it, to the serenity of it."
Brooke: "You just may get the thing your are wishing for."
Nathan: "The world is full of magic you just have to believe it.
So make your wish. Do you have it?"
Haley: "Good. Now believe in it with all you heart."
XO
Kymber.
Thursday, March 1, 2012
Here We Go Again...
Today has not started out the best. I found out my debit card information got stolen....again. Two times in under a year. What the mess?? I'm not sure why this keeps happening to me, but I am seriously getting annoyed. Maybe I need to just stop buying anything. And just have a savings account!
Lately everything has been going wrong. It's like I cannot get a break. Classes have been crazy, family life has been crazy since we found out about Addison's cancer, friend's lives have been crazy. Why does all the crazy stuff happen at once? Life is going fine and then BAM! One thing right after the other! I want to complain about everything it seems like now a days. Which I know is not the best thing to do, but...it's so easy. It's so easy to throw a pity party for yourself and what you have going on.
But, as I have realized today in a brief conversation with a guy I went to high school with, the bad things suck sure. But, there is so much more to be thankful for. I'm alive. I have a working car. I get to spend lots of time with my friends and family. I have so many people that love me. Why complain about the bad things? I need to learn to be more like him and focus on the good. But, that's easier said then done.
It's not fair what's happening to Addison. I wish with every fiber of my being that she didn't have to go through all this and live the rest of her life with one kidney. I wish that she didn't have to lose her hair. I wish that this was all a bad dream. But, on the other hand we are extremely blessed. After her chemo, as long as the cancer doesn't come back in the next two years, she should go on and live a long and happy life. So many kids won't get that chance. And it breaks my heart to know that people out there has lost their child or niece or nephew to such a terrible thing. Cancer is awful at any age....but to see a child go through it....no words can begin to describe how terrible it is. I would never wish this on anyone. I hope that none of you have to go through this. But, I do hope that some of you have looked into Alex's Lemonade Stand. They are an amazing organization that I hope to be more involved with one day.
I love you all. I hope you all have a fantastic day! Mine can only go up from here!!
Until next time my lovlies.
XO
Kymber.
Lately everything has been going wrong. It's like I cannot get a break. Classes have been crazy, family life has been crazy since we found out about Addison's cancer, friend's lives have been crazy. Why does all the crazy stuff happen at once? Life is going fine and then BAM! One thing right after the other! I want to complain about everything it seems like now a days. Which I know is not the best thing to do, but...it's so easy. It's so easy to throw a pity party for yourself and what you have going on.
But, as I have realized today in a brief conversation with a guy I went to high school with, the bad things suck sure. But, there is so much more to be thankful for. I'm alive. I have a working car. I get to spend lots of time with my friends and family. I have so many people that love me. Why complain about the bad things? I need to learn to be more like him and focus on the good. But, that's easier said then done.
It's not fair what's happening to Addison. I wish with every fiber of my being that she didn't have to go through all this and live the rest of her life with one kidney. I wish that she didn't have to lose her hair. I wish that this was all a bad dream. But, on the other hand we are extremely blessed. After her chemo, as long as the cancer doesn't come back in the next two years, she should go on and live a long and happy life. So many kids won't get that chance. And it breaks my heart to know that people out there has lost their child or niece or nephew to such a terrible thing. Cancer is awful at any age....but to see a child go through it....no words can begin to describe how terrible it is. I would never wish this on anyone. I hope that none of you have to go through this. But, I do hope that some of you have looked into Alex's Lemonade Stand. They are an amazing organization that I hope to be more involved with one day.
I love you all. I hope you all have a fantastic day! Mine can only go up from here!!
Until next time my lovlies.
XO
Kymber.
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
One Day It Will Get Easier
The past couple of months have been really hard. Addison's cancer turned my world upside down. And I haven't been the same sense. Honestly, I was changing a little before then...but Addison's health pushed that further than I ever thought possible.
In my World History of Film from the 1960s class we watched a movie called 'Cleo From 5 to 7', it's a French film about this singer who discovers that she might have cancer. She has to wait to get the test results back until 7. Hence the 5 to 7 part of the title. She goes about the next two hours being whiny, bratty, depressed, etc. She's very spoiled, but so many people that live a privileged life are spoiled. But, she wants to be away from everyone and she cries a lot. A friend of mine and his friend didn't like Cleo. They thought she was too whiny and she needed to get over it and not be so rude. Which, I understand to an extent. She was extremely spoiled and could have done things a little differently. But, they voiced their opinions and last night I voiced mine. I said that I thought the movie was okay because I understand that. Waiting for that kind of news isn't easy. We had to wait until Monday, after we found out on Saturday, what exactly they were going to do about Addison's tumor. We had to wait for the results to come back to see what stage she was at. That was the worst week of my life. I have never felt so helpless before in my life. I cried all the time. I didn't want to really talk to anybody. I wanted to be at the hospital by my sister's side the whole time. I was short with a lot of people. It was awful. Now, said friend didn't know this was going on due to a broken phone. So, he doesn't know what I was like that whole week. Trust me, I was not a pleasant person to be around if you weren't family. I was a complete mess when I wasn't at the hospital. I put on a brave front, but I'm not so brave. It kills me to think that Addison's going to lose her hair. That she's got to go through all this pain and suffering and not have a clue as to why she feels the way she does. But, said friend made a comment, I think he was trying to make it a joke...but it wasn't funny. It really hit a nerve. I cry so much for my poor little niece. I want to tell people to screw their happiness and just live in my own miserable bubble. But, like this blog is titled, Fake Smiles and Rehearsed Words...that's how I get through many days.
I'm tired of putting on the smiles that mean nothing. The empty laughter. Some days there is a lot of real smiles and full laughter. I guess it's all just part of life. Sometimes you are super happy and things are going well, other times...not so much. I kind of just want to disappear for a while. Get out of Alabama and go...anywhere. Like the Natalie Portman movie, 'Anywhere but Here.' I need a vacation. Not only away from my house. But, away from so many people. It's becoming more and more clear who my real friends are. Who I'm going to keep in touch with after college...and that list keeps getting smaller.
I love you all. I do. If you take the time to read my blog you are important to me. :) Please, please be appreciative of your good health. Please. You don't realize how much you have until you go through an awful event. But, be thoughtful to others and the circumstances they are in that you may know about. You can't begin to understand what they are going through.
Until next time my lovely readers.
XO
Kymber.
In my World History of Film from the 1960s class we watched a movie called 'Cleo From 5 to 7', it's a French film about this singer who discovers that she might have cancer. She has to wait to get the test results back until 7. Hence the 5 to 7 part of the title. She goes about the next two hours being whiny, bratty, depressed, etc. She's very spoiled, but so many people that live a privileged life are spoiled. But, she wants to be away from everyone and she cries a lot. A friend of mine and his friend didn't like Cleo. They thought she was too whiny and she needed to get over it and not be so rude. Which, I understand to an extent. She was extremely spoiled and could have done things a little differently. But, they voiced their opinions and last night I voiced mine. I said that I thought the movie was okay because I understand that. Waiting for that kind of news isn't easy. We had to wait until Monday, after we found out on Saturday, what exactly they were going to do about Addison's tumor. We had to wait for the results to come back to see what stage she was at. That was the worst week of my life. I have never felt so helpless before in my life. I cried all the time. I didn't want to really talk to anybody. I wanted to be at the hospital by my sister's side the whole time. I was short with a lot of people. It was awful. Now, said friend didn't know this was going on due to a broken phone. So, he doesn't know what I was like that whole week. Trust me, I was not a pleasant person to be around if you weren't family. I was a complete mess when I wasn't at the hospital. I put on a brave front, but I'm not so brave. It kills me to think that Addison's going to lose her hair. That she's got to go through all this pain and suffering and not have a clue as to why she feels the way she does. But, said friend made a comment, I think he was trying to make it a joke...but it wasn't funny. It really hit a nerve. I cry so much for my poor little niece. I want to tell people to screw their happiness and just live in my own miserable bubble. But, like this blog is titled, Fake Smiles and Rehearsed Words...that's how I get through many days.
I'm tired of putting on the smiles that mean nothing. The empty laughter. Some days there is a lot of real smiles and full laughter. I guess it's all just part of life. Sometimes you are super happy and things are going well, other times...not so much. I kind of just want to disappear for a while. Get out of Alabama and go...anywhere. Like the Natalie Portman movie, 'Anywhere but Here.' I need a vacation. Not only away from my house. But, away from so many people. It's becoming more and more clear who my real friends are. Who I'm going to keep in touch with after college...and that list keeps getting smaller.
I love you all. I do. If you take the time to read my blog you are important to me. :) Please, please be appreciative of your good health. Please. You don't realize how much you have until you go through an awful event. But, be thoughtful to others and the circumstances they are in that you may know about. You can't begin to understand what they are going through.
Until next time my lovely readers.
XO
Kymber.
Saturday, January 14, 2012
A New Year, A New Semester.
Well, my semester has officially started! I'm looking forward to it. Really I am. All of my teachers seem pretty cool. The only thing I'm worried about really is Accounting. That class is uber boring! But, I'm determined to do well! I'm super excited about taking this movie class with Jason and some of his friends. Finally we have a class together, and since he's graduating in May it's a good way to spend some time with him before he's a real adult. Even though today is his 22nd birthday, which makes him super old. But, ya know. Whatever.
I have Management with a guy the graduated from Chelsea with Jason. I totally love this guy. He's so funny and nice. And we got to be merry men together in the Spring Play my Junior year. Kid cracks me up! But, I'm excited to take a class with him. Even if we don't sit by each other it's nice to have a familiar face in the classroom, especially when we have to present something to the entire class. He can just be my focus so I don't freak out. :)
My boring Accounting class has Clarence in it. Which will make it so much better! I love him. So much. He's one of my absolute favorite people in the world. And a guy I work with is also in that class with me! So, it should be bare able! Hopefully. ;)
My Marketing class is great. I love it already! My teacher is pretty awesome. And, since I'm a Marketing major I'm excited to finally be in a class that is geared just towards that.
But, like I said, so far so good. I'm determined to do well this semester and I can't wait to see where this semester will take me! :D I hope all of you who are in school are looking forward to your semesters like I am! And good luck! Because I know it's tough. But, together we can make it! I believe in you...just like I believe in myself!!
Until next time my lovely readers. I love you all like mad!
XO
Kymber.
I have Management with a guy the graduated from Chelsea with Jason. I totally love this guy. He's so funny and nice. And we got to be merry men together in the Spring Play my Junior year. Kid cracks me up! But, I'm excited to take a class with him. Even if we don't sit by each other it's nice to have a familiar face in the classroom, especially when we have to present something to the entire class. He can just be my focus so I don't freak out. :)
My boring Accounting class has Clarence in it. Which will make it so much better! I love him. So much. He's one of my absolute favorite people in the world. And a guy I work with is also in that class with me! So, it should be bare able! Hopefully. ;)
My Marketing class is great. I love it already! My teacher is pretty awesome. And, since I'm a Marketing major I'm excited to finally be in a class that is geared just towards that.
But, like I said, so far so good. I'm determined to do well this semester and I can't wait to see where this semester will take me! :D I hope all of you who are in school are looking forward to your semesters like I am! And good luck! Because I know it's tough. But, together we can make it! I believe in you...just like I believe in myself!!
Until next time my lovely readers. I love you all like mad!
XO
Kymber.
Thursday, January 5, 2012
Fight Like A Girl
So, an update on Addison! She has started her chemo treatments and so far she's doing really great! She's still got energy and is being herself. I had lunch with Ashley on Monday and she said that right now they are just waiting for her to wake up and not be fine anymore. That thought alone makes me sad. She is such a sweet girl. But, after this whole experience she will hopefully be cancer free for life! Here are some pictures of the bracelets we are selling, in case any of you would like to order them! Remember they are $5! :)
All of this stuff with Addison has made me look into different organizations for child cancer. One I have heard about before, thanks to twitter and Peter Facinelli, but didn't ever think too much about is Alex's Lemonade Stand Foundation. I have really enjoyed the website and I hope to be able to get involved with it one day, when I have more time on my hands. But, for anyone interested in it here is the link to their website!
http://www.alexslemonade.org/
I have also found out that September is childhood cancer awareness month. I didn't know that before. This is a learning experience like no other. I have definitely changed my perspective on the world. So things that seemed important a few months ago look like nothing now. Family is my number one priority. Well, them and school. Everything else comes after.
I love you all dearly! I hope that the new year brings you all the joy and happiness you deserve. If you want a bracelet you can hit me up on Facebook, twitter, or e-mail me at kchill@uab.edu :)
Until next time lovely people! :)
XO
Kymber.
http://www.alexslemonade.org/
I have also found out that September is childhood cancer awareness month. I didn't know that before. This is a learning experience like no other. I have definitely changed my perspective on the world. So things that seemed important a few months ago look like nothing now. Family is my number one priority. Well, them and school. Everything else comes after.
I love you all dearly! I hope that the new year brings you all the joy and happiness you deserve. If you want a bracelet you can hit me up on Facebook, twitter, or e-mail me at kchill@uab.edu :)
Until next time lovely people! :)
XO
Kymber.
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