Well, it's almost Christmas which means another year has gone by. This is often times for people to reflect on the year passed and plan for the new year to come. I'm no different really. This year has brought joy of seeing my niece kick cancer's butt and make it to a third birthday. I got to spend lots of time with family and friends. I got to travel 12 hours one way to Virginia to see four amazing musicians, Bobby Long, Marcus Foster, Sam Bradley, and Edward Hartline. Two of my friends got married and one of them asked me to be a bridesmaid and I was able to be a part of her big day and stand by her as she started the newest chapter of her life. It has been an amazing year and I'm so grateful for everything that I have been able to do.
Sadly, with each year comes heartache. This year it came both personally and nationally. Personally I have been pushed to my limit by some and broken beyond repair on those friendships. Someone told me that as we grow older people become less dependable. But, shouldn't we become more dependable? When we're younger we hold this fierce loyalty to those we care about and those that we claim to be friends with. Why, as adults with a greater understanding of things, have that same fierce loyalty with others? I don't have everything figured out in life...nowhere close to having things figured out and being put together. But, I do know that I need to be as loyal as I can to people. I'm not perfect and I'm sure I say things about others that doesn't need to be said..But, I'm working on it. We make it our goal to bring others down to make us feel better and for what? To cause someone more pain then they already feel? Is that anyway to lift ourselves up? We compare ourselves with the rest of the world and convince our minds that we have to be like that to be acceptable to anyone. I have done my best for people and my best isn't good enough. I spent a lot of time thinking that if my best wasn't good enough for them then it won't be good enough for someone else. But you know what this year has led me to believe? I believe that my best will be good enough for those that give me there best. I don't deserve someone that treats me like crap. I don't have the time in my life to spend on those people anymore.
Last week the most horrific thing happened when a man went into Sandy Hook Elementary School and killed those teachers and students. I went home last Friday after work and just cried. Those children are my oldest niece's age. I can't imagine the pain they are going through. My thoughts and prayers go out to those families and friends affected by the events in Newton, CT last Friday.
2013 looks to be a fresh start, just like any other year. It's a blank page waiting for us to pick up the pen and start writing. The choices we've made this year may not have been the best. We've made mistakes along the road and we can't change that. All we can try to do is be better. 2013 will hold it's own mistakes and bad choices. But, that's all a part of life. How we react to the consequences of our actions is what will define us. I'm a firm believer that our mistakes don't define who we are as people. I hope you believe that as well. I've seen what it looks like for someone to believe their mistakes define them and it's not fair to that person. Remember that in 2013. Try to let go of the past. Turn the page in your book and move forward. Reading the same page over and over won't change what's already been written.
I hope you all have a great holiday season with your loved ones. Thank you for reading this blog. Happy Holidays!
I love you all like mad!
XO
Kymber.
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