A letter to my little brother.

 

Dear Nick, 

I miss you already. You haven't even been gone two weeks yet, but it still feels like a century. I keep thinking about all the plans we had made for the year...movies to go see at midnight, fun adventures for the summer, and Disney World in December. I've been thinking how that isn't going to happen anymore. Those memories we wanted to create together. But, I'm glad that we had the ones we did. I might have to change my plans and who to see those movies with...but I'll be wishing it were you when the time comes.


I'm sure you'd find it amusing that I now have to figure out my car problems on my own. I should have paid more attention when you were trying to teach me what to do. Now, I feel completely at a loss of how to fix certain things. I learned how to jump a car the other day. Impressive, right? I know...I need to just sell the Durango for scrap metal and get a new car. Mom and I can still hear your voice saying I need a new car. I will try to fix that as soon as possible. But, I have to graduate first, which as you know is seeming to take forever.

Remember when we went to Dairy Queen, on me of course, and I had you meet me at the gas station? You laughed at me because I forgot my gas cap at the other gas station that wasn't taking my card for some crazy reason and I had to have you go back and get it for me. And then of course I made you promise not to tell anyone about what had happened because I didn't want to add fuel to what people could make fun of me for. It was like our little secret. Among other things that we have kept to each other over the years. Now who am I going to trust with my secrets? Morgan? Yeah..I'm laughing at that too.

I was thinking today about that time that mom let you skip school to go have a brother/sister day with me to see Captain America and eat at Moe's. That was such a great day. We got to sleep in, you missed school (without being sick), we got to see Captain America (FINALLY), and Moe's in Hoover with the awesome drink machine? Great day. I wish I could remember more specifics from that day...but I don't. I wish we could have had more days like that. But, at least we had a few, right? I will always remember when we went to see Fast Five and we were so excited afterwards! We couldn't wait for the next one to come out thanks to that surprise ending after the credits. And then we went to Zaxby's to get milkshakes which were delicious. We then talked about how awesome the movie was and how we wished we could have cars like that.

Sigh. I miss you little brother. So much. We all do. I'm not sure where we need to go from here. I'm at such a loss of what to do. I miss you telling me that things were debatable..even though they really weren't. I miss you riding in the car with me to Walmart and hooking up your phone to my radio to play random songs. I just...miss everything.

I know you are in a better place and I know you are where you are supposed to be. Even though it's hard to accept and deal with here. Please watch over us...we are still hurting and miss you.

I love you. I miss you.

Love (The best big sister ever...cause..come on. hehe),

Kymber <3