Let Me Feel, I Don't Care if I Break Down.

So many people keep asking me how I am. My response is always the same, "I'm okay." I get that nobody knows what to say in this kind of situation. But, to be constantly asked how I am is extremely frustrating. I lost my 16 year old brother a few weeks ago..how do you think I am? I don't know how to deal with this kind of situation any better than anyone else.

When I found out about my brother I was in Nashville at a Bobby Long concert...it was his first opening act that was on stage when I received a message to call my mom..and I did. What I found out has changed my life and is something I never expected to hear. But, this has lead to a lot of questions about how this affects my thoughts on concerts and more specifically Bobby Long concerts....

 I had to go to a concert at BottleTree Cafe for a class project and I had a panic attack in the parking lot before going in. When it comes time for me to be able to see Bobby Long again...I'm not sure I'm going to be able to do it. And that pains me more than I thought it would. My brother's death has nothing to do with me being at that show in Nashville...but, anytime I think of Nashville or a Bobby Long show I'm always going to think about finding out about it. I'm not sure when Bobby Long will make his way through the South...it could be a while before that happens and maybe by that time I will be able to suck it up and go see him live and get rid of the bad taste in my mouth about his shows. I will continue to support him...but, I'm not sure about concerts...for him or anyone.

I have loved every second of being a part of his street team and meeting some amazing people through his music. I have some really great memories involving him and his music. And, he sent me his condolences and is just one of the sweetest guys ever. I'm hoping that by the time he comes through Birmingham again I can go to see him.

This is just one small thing I am having to go through at the moment. It doesn't seem like a lot to some people, but  to me it is a battle to get through. If you know me well then you know how important music is to me. Especially the music of Bobby Long and his friends.

Everything else that I am going through isn't really blog material. It's so hard to have my little brother gone. I'm not sure what to do or say. Just like many people don't know what to do or say to me and my family. Your prayers and continued love and support are all that we can really ask for. We appreciate all of them and can't imagine how difficult this would be without that. Thank you guys for everything. It means more to us than you know.


Love you all like mad.

XO
Kymber.