Those Storm Clouds Gather in Her Eyes

I'm tired of being sort of a push over. It's very hard for me to find it in myself to say no to people. I'm getting better at it...but, still sometimes I just can't help it. I'm a people pleaser and if I care anything about you I don't want to make you upset.

I'm working on it though. I can hold my ground for somethings and stuff, but...it's going to be a long process.

Today's title comes from "Blown Away" by Carrie Underwood, which was suggested to me by my dear sweet friend Kristin. I have been obsessed with that song lately. It kind of reflects my mood on certain things. I don't relate to the song at all. It talks about an alcoholic abusive father, which I don't have, but it's about forgetting the past and trying to erase the pain.

There’s not enough rain in Oklahoma
To wash the sins out of that house
There’s not enough wind in Oklahoma
To rip the nails out of the past

Shatter every window 'til it’s all blown away,
Every brick, every board, every slamming door blown away
'til there’s nothing left standing,
Nothing left of yesterday
Every tear-soaked whiskey memory blown away,
Blown away


I have cried too many tears over people who don't deserve them. I worry about things that I have no control of anymore. It's just time to let go and move on. No matter how much I want to cling onto somethings and never let go, it's not healthy.

I'm trying my best to get in a healthier mind set. But, that's going to be so hard. To be able to love myself and focus on the good things about me. The things others see in me that I can't see in myself. That's where I need to be.

On a happier note, I'm so excited for this semester in school! It's going to be fantastic! I have an online class with a few friends, I get to take a few Marketing classes...it's going to be a busy semester...but I'm ready for it!! :D Speaking of, I can't make this update a long one so I can focus on my online work. Bet you haven't heard me mention that on here before have you? ;)

I hope you all are having a fantastic day! Thanks for reading this simple little blog I post. I'm not sure if it's interesting to others but, it helps me put my thoughts out there and sort things out in my head. I can't wait for the next blog pots that are to come over the next few months! Wedding's are so hectic! But, I'm so glad to be apart of Sarah's big day! Everything is going to be fabulous!

Love you guys like mad!
Until next time!


XO
Kymber.