I Do Believe A Song Can Heal Me

WOW! It has been an extremely long time since I've been on here! 
How are you guys?? 

I've finished up my LAST FALL SEMESTER OF COLLEGE!!! Woot woot! It's super exciting. This semester has been the most stressful semester of my life! There have been times where other semesters have gotten stressful...but this one started stressful and ended stressful...and there was no break between. CRAZINESS you guys. 

With the end of this semester and the start of my final semester rapidly approaching...I can't help but reflect on who I've become over this journey through college. The 17 year old that started in the fall of 2009 is a distant memory to the 23 year old that will be graduating in April 2015. 

I don't know how to explain who I used to be. I was scared and naive and ridiculous. I'm still those things but in a different way. I have experienced more pain and heartache in the last 5 years than I ever thought possible. I have made life long friends in the most surprising places. I have not given up, even though there are more times than I can count where all I have wanted to do is give up. 


I have discovered just how amazing my family is. We may not always talk or get along...but if I need them they are there for me. I love them all so much. 

I have learned how to wake up with a large part of my family gone. Sometimes I still wish that the loss of my little brother is just a painful nightmare I will wake up from...but it's not. I have to wake up and live with the reality that I won't get to speak to him every day or watch dumb TV shows and movies. The last conversation I had with him was about the money I owed him...if I had known that was going to be our last conversation...I would have told him so many things. I just hope he knows how much I love him. And how much he is missed. 

This year my mom moved states and I stayed here in Alabama. I'm living with some family friends and my older siblings are still here as well. So, don't worry! I'm not homeless or lonely. Ha! It's been an adjustment to live so far away from my mom. This experience has taught me a lot. My mom has a great job where she is now and I'm so happy for her. 

I had the PERFECT birthday weekend this year. I finally was able to do something I've been talking about since I was 19 years old. I had a private concert with two of my favorite musicians and it was everything. I'm so thankful for those two musicians. They both hold special brotherly places in my heart. They have gone above and beyond anything I would have ever expected and I just really appreciate them. So, if they are reading this...thanks y'all. 

Next year will start an entirely new adventure for me. I'll graduate college and have to find a grown up job. This terrifies me...and excites me. I can't wait to see where I end up....or where my dreams take me. 2015 is going to be amazing...with more trials that wait for me. This used to scare me...but, to see what I have been through in college alone I can handle so much more than I ever thought I could. 

Thank you to everyone that has shown their love and support for my family and me. I appreciate you to no end. I'm not sure how I can thank you enough...but, I love you guys. And you're stuck with me for life. So, get used to it. ;) 


Until next time lovely people. Stay awesome. 

XO 
Kymber.