If Someone Isn't Hurt Then It's Gonna Be Me

So, today is October 31st!! Happy Halloween to all of you lovely people! I'm excited for this month to be over!! I've had to work like crazy the last couple of weeks and would love to be able to sleep the next week. But, that's what I get for working at a party store, right? My next paycheck is gonna be so legit. I'll be able to pay all my bills with it! Yay!! :D
But, I'm not so sure how many more Halloween's I'd be able to do at work. I have felt like the energizer bunny the past month and a half. I have totally lost touch with my friends and don't have time to do anything fun. It's such a bummer. I need to invest in a life.
Much to my excitement though....is....drum roll please......November is going to be EPIC!!! :D The new movie, Immortals, with one Mr. Kellan Lutz comes out on the 11th! I'm totally in love with him. He's such a good person. And totally hot, but that's besides the point. The movie looks flipping sweet. It's from the same guys who did 300...so...do with that what you will.
Also, Breaking Dawn Part 1 comes out November 18, staring some of the best actors ever, including Mr. Lutz...again. :D I'm extremely excited for this movie. I love the book and am going to start rereading it this week to finish it by the time I see it at midnight on the 18th. If you haven't read the Twilight Saga and are into love stories and vampires...check it out! Although, these aren't your typical vampires and some people don't like it...but I really enjoyed the books. And the movies get better and better each time they come out. Totally worth paying to see it in regular theaters. :) So...do that.
AND!!! If you live in the Birmingham, Alabama area, or are just in Alabama anywhere. You need to mark this on your calendar...Bobby Long will be at The BottleTree Cafe on November 19th, doors open at 8 pm, show starts at 9pm. Tickets are $10. Which, is really good for a concert. And he's British and simply wonderful! I had the amazing opportunity to see him in April when he was in Birmingham at WorkPlay. And like I have said before, if I could live at WorkPlay I would. That place just has such an awesome energy to it. And I have had so many wonderful experiences there. But, I am excited to see Mr. Long at The BottleTree Cafe, I've never been there and am excited to expand my taste of places to see awesome artists.
So, as you can see my November is going to be packed full of fun times! :) And Thanksgiving, which also means I need to make a list of people who I am going to buy gifts for. Geeze. So much to do! But, don't forget those dates!! November 11th = Immortals, November 18th= Breaking Dawn Part 1, and November 19th= Bobby Long at BottleTree....I'll be there...so you should be too! :D
Anyways, I love you all like mad and I hope you have all had a lovely month! Mine has been drama filled and I'm excited to see where November takes me with my new found knowledge and plan to turn things around! :) I'll try to update more often...I know it's a bummer since I used to update more often, but I promise to try to do better!! Love y'all! :D

XO
Kymber.

I Won't Let You Close Enough to Hurt Me....

Have you ever just had a day where all the thoughts you want to push out of your mind  keep coming up? And with these questions you dread every second of the day because these are issues you've burried for so long? The answers to these questions are something you need to know...but yet, you are afraid to ask because the answers may just be worse than what you think it could be? You are so afraid to lose something so special to you that you act as if everything is fine? Yet you are desperate to get rid of the one thing that is slowly ruining every last bit of you? If you don't do something soon you fear losing not only this something special but every last part of the you that you used to be?

I'm not sure if I'm the only that has ever felt this way. I doubt it. I'm holding on to something for dear life that I probably should have let go a long time ago. I should have been able to let go when all the signs were there, telling me I mean nothing and have been left on the sidelines. This..something I'm holding onto was there to pick up the pieces of a broken girl. If it weren't for this....something....I'm not sure what would have happened to me.

I've changed a lot over the years. Since I was a broken 14 year old girl. With my 20th birthday coming up in the next couple of weeks I'm wondering if it's really time to let go. I don't want to. I've been clinging on with everything I have for so long. Letting go feels like the end of everything that's kept me together. I want to hold on to this thing to feel some normalcy. I'm afraid if I lose it I will be left scared and alone again. Trusting nothing.

But, it's time to move on right? Growing up is full of hard things...and I guess this is just one of the hard things for me? It's shown it's true colors...time for me to let go and move on. I deserve better than this.

Until next time my lovelies.

XO
Kymber.