There's a Tear Every Time That I Blink...

What do you say when you haven't posted in over a year? Where do you even begin? I started a new job and I love my coworkers. It's a different pace and I feel more and more like a grown up every day.

I still feel as if I'm stuck sometimes. I've made some significant changes in my life...and still there is this overwhelming feeling of being stuck. I need to find something to look forward to, something that makes me happy. It's just harder to do that when I feel like I have no time. And this is the time of year I feel even more emotional than my already overly emotional girl self.

This month marks four years since Nick died. Four years since I last talked to him. Four years since this large part of my life died. There are so many things he is missing out on and it breaks my heart. It's hard to have these major life changing moments and not have him here to make jokes. There are still times I feel guilty about going on and continuing my life. When I feel happy and he's not here. Moving on feels wrong at times. I know Nick wouldn't want me to feel guilty. He'd want me to be happy and enjoy life as much as I can. But I'm only human...a 25 year old that just misses my brother. Thank goodness for technology because I can hear his voice and see his face any time I want. To be reminded of his voice and personality when I need it most.

I hope you guys are all doing well.

Life is busy. Life is crazy. Life is good. For the most part at least.

Thank you guys for everything. You're wonderful.

Until next time.

XO
Kymber.