I Do Believe A Song Can Heal Me

WOW! It has been an extremely long time since I've been on here! 
How are you guys?? 

I've finished up my LAST FALL SEMESTER OF COLLEGE!!! Woot woot! It's super exciting. This semester has been the most stressful semester of my life! There have been times where other semesters have gotten stressful...but this one started stressful and ended stressful...and there was no break between. CRAZINESS you guys. 

With the end of this semester and the start of my final semester rapidly approaching...I can't help but reflect on who I've become over this journey through college. The 17 year old that started in the fall of 2009 is a distant memory to the 23 year old that will be graduating in April 2015. 

I don't know how to explain who I used to be. I was scared and naive and ridiculous. I'm still those things but in a different way. I have experienced more pain and heartache in the last 5 years than I ever thought possible. I have made life long friends in the most surprising places. I have not given up, even though there are more times than I can count where all I have wanted to do is give up. 


I have discovered just how amazing my family is. We may not always talk or get along...but if I need them they are there for me. I love them all so much. 

I have learned how to wake up with a large part of my family gone. Sometimes I still wish that the loss of my little brother is just a painful nightmare I will wake up from...but it's not. I have to wake up and live with the reality that I won't get to speak to him every day or watch dumb TV shows and movies. The last conversation I had with him was about the money I owed him...if I had known that was going to be our last conversation...I would have told him so many things. I just hope he knows how much I love him. And how much he is missed. 

This year my mom moved states and I stayed here in Alabama. I'm living with some family friends and my older siblings are still here as well. So, don't worry! I'm not homeless or lonely. Ha! It's been an adjustment to live so far away from my mom. This experience has taught me a lot. My mom has a great job where she is now and I'm so happy for her. 

I had the PERFECT birthday weekend this year. I finally was able to do something I've been talking about since I was 19 years old. I had a private concert with two of my favorite musicians and it was everything. I'm so thankful for those two musicians. They both hold special brotherly places in my heart. They have gone above and beyond anything I would have ever expected and I just really appreciate them. So, if they are reading this...thanks y'all. 

Next year will start an entirely new adventure for me. I'll graduate college and have to find a grown up job. This terrifies me...and excites me. I can't wait to see where I end up....or where my dreams take me. 2015 is going to be amazing...with more trials that wait for me. This used to scare me...but, to see what I have been through in college alone I can handle so much more than I ever thought I could. 

Thank you to everyone that has shown their love and support for my family and me. I appreciate you to no end. I'm not sure how I can thank you enough...but, I love you guys. And you're stuck with me for life. So, get used to it. ;) 


Until next time lovely people. Stay awesome. 

XO 
Kymber. 

Maybe I Never Had it All Together...

Whoa. It's been a LONG time since I've posted anything on here. It's been a pretty busy summer! I'm not even sure where to begin really....

I went to Virginia to see Bobby Long in June came home. I was home for a day and then went left to Oklahoma City for my best friend's birthday! We got to see the Backstreet Boys and Lee Lindsey! It was super fun. Then I came home. And then I did laundry the next day and repacked and went to Bonnaroo. 

I think I'm still recovering from that TWO WEEKS of travel. I basically drove all the way across the country...if you add up those miles. 

My final year at UAB starts in the next couple of weeks. I really have to start figuring out what I want to do with my life. There is no "Oh I've got time for that.." because I don't. What if I can't find a job? What do I do then? Do I take people's joking advice to be a celebrity nanny? Or an actor's personal assistant? Do I stay in my retail job? Do I become a hobo? 

Growing up is not fun. When you graduate from high school you look forward to moving out of the house and being all "adult." When you graduate from college you look forward to...? Paying back student loans? A ton of bills? 

I'm excited to be done with college. I'm really excited to be able to people I'm a college graduate. But I'm terrified that I won't be able to find a job. A job that will pay me enough to live off of. I'm just not sure what to expect in the coming months of job hunting. I'm looking at indeed.com and I'm just lost. 

So, here is to the new fall semester. The final fall semester I will ever take of undergrad. 5 classes and a lab is all I need to finish. 
I cannot wait to celebrate graduation with my best friend. It's going to be awesome. But, it will be easier to enjoy my celebration with a job lined up afterwards. Sigh. 

I guess we'll see. I can make a list of all the musicians I could possibly work for..but, you've got to start somewhere. Right? 


BLAH. 

Anyways, just wanted to put these thoughts out there. 
Growing up is stupid. Don't do it. 

Until next time. Stay awesome! 

XO
Kymber.

A Letter to my Little Brother Part 2.

Dear Nick,

It's been over a year since the last time I talked to you...the last time I saw you. I think about you every. single. day.

It's hard to think that our new niece will never get to know her uncle. But I know we will tell her all about you. Especially Kyleigh. It was so cute, when Morgan was here on break, Alyssa took one of Addison's dance pictures and showed it to Stacy and then to Jeff and then she ran over to the giant picture of you and held it up to your face so you could see it too. It was so adorable...and a little heart breaking. Those little girls love you so much. It's hard to think about all the things you won't be here for. All the activities the girls will do that you won't be there physically to cheer them on. 

I miss you little brother. Some days I don't know how I make it through the day knowing you are gone. You aren't here to enjoy my new car...the one that you and I repeatedly told mom I needed to get and she didn't give in until August of last year. You aren't here to make crazy comments or laugh at the stupid things I do. You aren't here for me to take you to concerts that I know you'd want go to..like oh The Lonely Island in Nashville! But, I won't be going to that. 

I love you Nick...so much. And I miss you and all the annoying things you used to do. 

Love always and forever, 
(Your favorite sister)

Kymber xx

11 months later..and some days I still can't breathe.

The 6th of every month has become my least favorite day. It brings about a sadness I will never fully recover from. It means one more month has passed since my brother's death. Some days it's so easy to put on a fake smile and pretend I'm not broken inside..and other days I just want to lay on the couch, eat ice cream, and watch stupid TV shows all day. And obviously stay in my PJs. But, unfortunately that's not an option I can choose. I have to get out of bed and go about my day. Things have gotten easier. I have such an amazing support system. Whether it be my family or close friends or my Twitter friends that share the same passion for certain musician's music...I know I have people out there who love and care about my well being. I appreciate each and everyone of you. If it weren't for you guys I'd be more of a basket case than I already am. I've been thinking a lot about what happened after I found out about Nick's death. There is so much that I don't remember doing or saying...but then there is some I do remember. Specifically the phone call that was the highlight of my year...and came just when I needed it. Bobby Long has showed me so much compassion in the last 11 months that I never would have expected. He isn't just a fantastic musician..but a fantastic human being as well. I know I've probably brought him up in several posts and talked about how wonderful he is...but, I think it needs to be sad more often. So many people focus on the bad in people and the mistakes we may have made...but why? Let's focus on the good in people. That will make this world a much better place. I've been able to start working as an administrator for the Sam Bradley fan blog, 'A Soulful Sound.' Never did I think I would be given that opportunity. It's been a great experience and I'm so thankful for the chance to work on the blog with two other lovely ladies. In the midst of my darkest hour..there is so many wonderful things happening. So, as they say 'Fake it til you make it.' This seems to be the motto of my life. No matter what...it could always be worse. Thank you to everyone that worries about me. I'm slowly coming back together. Hopefully one day I will be able to feel like me again. Until next time lovely people. I love y'all like mad! XO Kymber.

Post Grad Plans

So, I had to write a news story about myself, in third person, and my plans after graduating college. My teacher didn't even take up the assignment! So, I said to myself I will just put it on my blog and maybe someone will read it other then me. Ha. Most of you should already know this stuff about me anyways... So, here it is....


With graduation on the horizon, Kymber Hill has plans to become the next top publicist for independent artists in the music industry.

Kymber Hill is a 22 year old college student at the University of Alabama at Birmingham. She has big plans to move out of Birmingham and to New York City. While growing up, New York City has always been in her top five cities to move to for whichever career she wanted to pursue.
Hill's love for independent/lesser known musicians did not come about until 2010. Thanks to a friend, she discovered British musician Bobby Long. His lyrics and sound touched her soul and began the discovery of what she wanted to do with her career.

Falling in love with Long's music was one of the best things to happen to Hill. The discovery of Long led to discovering similar artists, such as, Sam Bradley, Marcus Foster, and Edward Hartline. During some of Hill's hardest times the songs from these musicians have helped her get through them. She wants to be able to help others find not only their music, but the music of other musicians like them.

Hill has become an active member of all their street teams. She actually runs Hartline's international street team and fan club. She has been able to use her own creativity to plan events and other ways to promote them around Birmingham. She has been able to build relationships with some of the musicians and work with them on promotional ideas. Hill has enjoyed her time promoting and networking with these musicians so much that she wants to be able to do that for a living.

Adding to her street team efforts, Hill has recently become an administrator, along with two other women, for a fan website for Sam Bradley. This is helping her gain further knowledge on how to reach out to a musician's fan base and expand it. Hill believes that these experiences will give her an edge when it comes to finding a job upon graduation.

While living in Alabama Kymber Hill has experienced many things. She has learned a lot about herself and her future plans. It is getting closer to graduation and she is ready to end this chapter of her life and start the next.




Love you all like mad!

XO
Kymber.