The last couple of days I have been thinking about how my life could be different. How I could be different. I know we shouldn't dwell on the 'what ifs' in life, but I have found a few things out lately about different people and it makes me wonder what would have happened had my family stayed in Oklahoma.
I'm not naming names or saying that everyone I knew in Oklahoma is just awful and doing all these things that I would never do and blah blah blah. It's just interesting to see how much everyone has changed. I mean we've all changed. I no longer look at the world as a place filled with sunshine and rainbows...I'm not some extremely trusting person anymore either... But what if some of the biggest events in my life had happened in Oklahoma? What if my parents divorce had happened there? Would I have taken the road that some many before me have taken to self destruction? If my parents didn't end up divorced would I have taken that road anyways and completely lose myself and everything I believe in today?
I'm nowhere near perfect. I don't do everything I'm supposed to do. I don't always make the right decisions in how I need to handle things. But, I haven't strayed to far from what I've believed in since I was a child.
If I had stayed in Oklahoma would I be the party girl that believes in only having fun when drunk? Would I be sleeping around with everybody? It's hard for me to even comprehend how I would be if that were the case. I would have completely lost myself in every way imaginable.
But, what has made me stay this way? I have had plenty of opportunities to go out and drink with people, especially since starting college. I haven't had any opportunities to sleep around, not that I'm complaining, just saying. But, why is it that I have chosen to stay this way? It'd be so easy to lose myself and yet I stay the same. I politely decline alcohol and I'm not usually seen at parties. So, what is so different about me than the people in Oklahoma? Once upon a time we all believed the same things. We used to do everything together and yet we are all completely different now. Is it just the life experiences that have been the major deciding factor on how we turned out? I'm just not sure what to think. What makes me different from them? Or them different from me? Who knows..But I have been wondering lately about all the 'What ifs'. not completely sure why...but there it is.
Until next time my lovely readers. :)
XO
Kymber.
I'm plain and boring. Complicated. Confusing. Trying to figure who I am out and this is my story.
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Back To School To Prove To Dad I'm Not a Fool.....
So, my third year of college has officially started! I'm kind of excited to see where this year takes me. I have a feeling it's going to be a wonderful year! :D I had a fabulous lunch yesterday with my best friend and an old friend from school. It was pretty fun! But lunch with my best friend is always fun. He is highly amusing. Although yesterday he kept like bumping his elbow into my arm and my arm kinda hurts today....sigh. But, I hit him back so it was even. We always act a little crazy when we get together. That's why I love him. I can be a complete fool, out in public, and not care what everyone else thinks because he looks just as dorky as I do. Thankfully this time he didn't throw anything at me...I can't remember the last time we got together that didn't end in us throwing things at each other..hmm...
Anyways, then I had a break from 1:15-4 and was able to hang out with Nyya for a little bit! We went to the thrift store, then Old Navy, and then we went to what I like to call Camp Taco on steroids....it was set up like a Moe's....just with Camp Taco stuff....it was good but I like our ghetto, you can tell it used to be a subway, Camp Taco. :) Then we made our way back to campus and off to class we went. We met up for dinner and checked out all the quality......campus is definitely stepping up their quality game...not gonna lie.
One thing that annoys me though is all the stinking couples on campus!! Like, seriously people?! I don't want to see you all holding hands and being all kissy kissy with each other...I mean barf. I could seriously just start kicking people at random times. It makes me sick. And it's like a constant reminder that I'm almost 20 and still alone. Thank you world for pointing out the obvious. -_- I had to get an X-Ray done the other day and the lady didn't even ask if I could be preggers....and usually they ask that right? I mean it's been awhile since I had to have that done but I remember being asked that. It's not like I have a chance to be preggers...and I won't until I'm married because that's a choice I have made...but still it would have been nice to have been asked. I thought maybe I have a sign on my head that says pathetically single. LOL!
Oh well. Another day...same story. Typical Kymber. :D I've given up on guys. That's why I'm gonna end up being the crazy cat lady....and dang proud of that fact too! ;)
Well, I'm exhausted and have to be up early in the morning to do some things and get school books. Yay. Not really.
Until next time my lovely readers.
XO
Kymber.
Anyways, then I had a break from 1:15-4 and was able to hang out with Nyya for a little bit! We went to the thrift store, then Old Navy, and then we went to what I like to call Camp Taco on steroids....it was set up like a Moe's....just with Camp Taco stuff....it was good but I like our ghetto, you can tell it used to be a subway, Camp Taco. :) Then we made our way back to campus and off to class we went. We met up for dinner and checked out all the quality......campus is definitely stepping up their quality game...not gonna lie.
One thing that annoys me though is all the stinking couples on campus!! Like, seriously people?! I don't want to see you all holding hands and being all kissy kissy with each other...I mean barf. I could seriously just start kicking people at random times. It makes me sick. And it's like a constant reminder that I'm almost 20 and still alone. Thank you world for pointing out the obvious. -_- I had to get an X-Ray done the other day and the lady didn't even ask if I could be preggers....and usually they ask that right? I mean it's been awhile since I had to have that done but I remember being asked that. It's not like I have a chance to be preggers...and I won't until I'm married because that's a choice I have made...but still it would have been nice to have been asked. I thought maybe I have a sign on my head that says pathetically single. LOL!
Oh well. Another day...same story. Typical Kymber. :D I've given up on guys. That's why I'm gonna end up being the crazy cat lady....and dang proud of that fact too! ;)
Well, I'm exhausted and have to be up early in the morning to do some things and get school books. Yay. Not really.
Until next time my lovely readers.
XO
Kymber.
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
Love Is Louder
So many people now a days are rude and inconsiderate and....just awful towards others. You see this more in schools because kids can be horrible. I'm not perfect. I have said mean things about others behind their backs. But, I have never been so hateful to others. If you ask anyone they will tell you I can't be mean. I used to be able to be rude and not care what people thought or their feelings, but what's the point in that?
With the way people treat others it's no wonder kids have so many issues. What's the point to being rude? To make your self feel better about your own insecurities? Bringing someone down and pointing out their flaws to cover up your own isn't the way it should be people! We should be working together to lift up their spirits. That will make you feel so good about yourself. So much more than being rude to them. The world needs more love. It needs people who are willing to tell others just how great they are.
We are never alone. We have an amazing Heavenly Father who loves us. No matter what we do, he'll always love us. Don't forget that. He's there when you feel like you have nobody else. Try to remember that.
Love is Louder than the bullies we have all faced. I was teased in elementary school so much. As well as in my own home. I have felt alone and pathetic and helpless. I have come home crying to my mother to home school me so I wouldn't have to deal with the mean kids any longer. But, I have over come those hurtful words. I am working on being more confident and loving who I am. You can do it too. Because I love you. And I believe in you. I promise you that for every 1 bully out there, you have 10 more people who love you for you. Don't give into the hate. Brush off the haters and be you. Because you are who you are and anyone who doesn't love you just the way you are isn't worth a minute of your time.
Until next time my favorite people.
XO
Kymber.
With the way people treat others it's no wonder kids have so many issues. What's the point to being rude? To make your self feel better about your own insecurities? Bringing someone down and pointing out their flaws to cover up your own isn't the way it should be people! We should be working together to lift up their spirits. That will make you feel so good about yourself. So much more than being rude to them. The world needs more love. It needs people who are willing to tell others just how great they are.
We are never alone. We have an amazing Heavenly Father who loves us. No matter what we do, he'll always love us. Don't forget that. He's there when you feel like you have nobody else. Try to remember that.
Love is Louder than the bullies we have all faced. I was teased in elementary school so much. As well as in my own home. I have felt alone and pathetic and helpless. I have come home crying to my mother to home school me so I wouldn't have to deal with the mean kids any longer. But, I have over come those hurtful words. I am working on being more confident and loving who I am. You can do it too. Because I love you. And I believe in you. I promise you that for every 1 bully out there, you have 10 more people who love you for you. Don't give into the hate. Brush off the haters and be you. Because you are who you are and anyone who doesn't love you just the way you are isn't worth a minute of your time.
Until next time my favorite people.
XO
Kymber.